(Minghui.org) When the alarm went off in the morning, I got up quickly to do the five Falun Dafa exercises. Then I went back to bed.
When I woke up once again, I felt hungry and dizzy. I had no energy and felt empty-headed. I barely made it to the bathroom and supported myself by placing my elbow on the sink, so I could wash my hands. When I told my husband that I was very hungry, he simply said, “Then go make yourself something to eat.”
It didn’t take long for my husband to realize that something was wrong, especially once he saw the way I placed my hands over my chest. My face also showed the discomfort I felt, so he decided to make something to eat for me.
I remembered that practitioners recited the two phrases “Falun Dafa is good, Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good” when faced with difficulties. Thus, I silently began to recite them over and over again. After a while, I felt something was coming out from the left side of my leg, which happened twice. This made me realize that my body was being purified.
I walked into the kitchen and sat down at the dining table. I wanted to burn incense for Master Li (Dafa’s founder) but still had no energy to walk. A thought suddenly occurred to me: “Isn’t this an illusion? It is here to harm me. I am interfered with by the evil because there are loopholes in my cultivation.”
A scene of my daughter, grandson and I flashed through my mind. We were watching television while drinking tea and having some snacks the night before. I was content and comfortable at that time, but deep down inside I felt rather uneasy. How could I enjoy myself in ordinary society when there are so many sentient beings to be saved? I told myself that my having a good time doesn’t happen that often, and I will make up for it in the future. I did not think that such a notion would affect my cultivation.
Master said,
“A person’s cultivation is a rigorous process, with every aspect closely linked, and not a single moment or step of it can afford to be disrupted.” (“Another Stern Warning”)
“Spiritual cultivation is about progressing to divinity, and all human attachments act as impediments. And the path is narrow in our case. If you are even just a bit careless you might veer off course, and problems will follow—potentially big ones. And if you fail to find your way back, you will regret it forever.” (“Another Stern Warning”)
I understood what happened after reading Master’s Fa. My righteous thoughts emerged and I knew that Master was protecting me because I am a Dafa practitioner. Only Master has the final say. I should not acknowledge this illusion, which is persecutory in nature. If I had done something that did not align with the Fa, I will rectify myself in accordance with the requirements of Dafa. I will not leave any gaps so the evil forces could interfere with me.
While thinking all that, I felt a strong force from deep within and broke down in tears. I did not know what to do, and my husband was shocked as well. I did not know why I was crying and only kept saying, “Only Master has the final say.”
I stood up while crying and realized my body felt very light. I told my husband, “I am all better now! It is amazing!” I had changed into a completely different person and was able to walk normally. I seemed to have awakened from a long dream and wondered why I had cried. My knowing side in other dimensions must have witnessed how much Master endured for me.
I understood that the great and compassionate Master did not give up on me and had helped me. My crying signified the awakening of my soul, and my tears represented how I felt about Master. I went out of the kitchen and decided to burn incense for Master. I put my palms together into the heshi gesture of respect and bowed to Master, for whom I am forever indebted!
Overcoming this tribulation made me more aware of the seriousness and solemness of cultivation practice. Nothing can be glossed over. A true cultivator should find joy in suffering hardships. When one indulges in material benefits, one will give up halfway and everything will end up in vain. I need to study the Fa more, change my human notions, and follow the principles of Dafa. I need to let go of the attachment of sentimentality and rise above and beyond.
I will be even more diligent in cultivation. I will walk my path with Master to the end, and fulfill my historic vows, in spite of the hardships.