(Minghui.org) I received a phone call from our local police station on the afternoon of July 9, 2020, to inform me that my “release on bail” was near its end and that I had to proceed to the “next step,” which meant that my case would be handed over to the Procuratorate.
The call really scared me. I kept seeing in my mind my home being ransacked twice. Since I lacked righteous thoughts, fear gained the upper hand, and I couldn’t stay focused at Fa-study nor could I recite the Fa. In addition, I couldn’t stay calm when sending righteous thoughts, because I was consumed by fear.
I was worried about the state of my cultivation and wondered what I should do. Then an idea flashed into my mind: “Go talk to other practitioners.” So I went to see Ms. He. I briefly told her what was going on. I said, “I’m so scared. I have been persecuted twice in about three years. I didn't remove my fear, and now it has become rampant. My head feels as if a big mountain is pressing down on it.”
After she quietly listened to me, she shared with me something Master Li said: “Just do what you should do openly and with dignity, and everything will be covered.” (Fa-Lecture During the 2003 Lantern Festival at the U.S. West Fa Conference)
She said, “Why don’t you try to awaken their consciences? That fear, the substance that makes you scared, is not you. You shouldn’t acknowledge it, but rather eliminate it by sending righteous thoughts. If it still doesn’t work, then ask Master for help.”
I suddenly enlightened that it was Master using her words to give me a hint. I went home, calmed down, and knew what to do.
First, I sent forth righteous thoughts to eliminate my fear. I also asked Master to empower me. Right after that, I felt my fear was largely eliminated. That night, I could study and recite the Fa as usual. I knew Master was right by my side. Then I recalled something Master said: “Wherever there's a problem, that is where you need to clarify the truth and save people.” (“Teaching the Fa at the Washington, D.C. Fa Conference,” Collected Fa Teachings, Vol. II)
I thought: “I want to save them, as they are the ones who are truly being persecuted.”
I had never tried to awaken people's consciences by clarifying the truth to them face-to-face in this kind of situation. How would I do that? I suddenly enlightened that, since I had their names and addresses, I could write to them. Master saw my wish and enabled me to write the truth-clarification letters and mail them.
I quietly asked Master to let them learn the truth and be saved. I completely forgot about what outcome might await me and how my case was proceeding. Because I let go of my ego, I felt very calm.
Master said,
“And human notions change,The degenerate things purged,Brightness now shines forth.”(“Born Anew,” Hong Yin, Translation Version A)
I enlightened that I must let go of the fear of being persecuted and instead focus on saving people.
Though my fear subsided, it still appeared in my mind from time to time. The fear of being persecuted and remembering how fellow practitioners were persecuted kept popping up. Thus, I kept reciting,
“Should you have fear,it will seize upon youIf thoughts are righteous,evil will collapseThe cultivator’s mindis loaded with FaSend righteous thoughts,and rotten demons explodeGods walk the earth,validating the Fa” (“What’s to Fear?” Hong Yin II, Translation Version A)
For two nights in a row, my daughter asked me in tears, “When will the persecution be over? When it comes to the Fa rectifying the human world, there won’t be any more persecution, will there?” I knew that the old forces were using sentimentality to try to move me. I said to her, “You have attachments. Is it because you are afraid that your mother will be persecuted and that’s why you want it to end soon?” She admitted that was so. Then I told her what Master said:
“It cannot end, because so many Dafa disciples have fallen behind, so many lives have been lost, and so many sentient beings cannot be saved.” (“Fa Teaching at the 2016 New York Fa Conference,” Team Blue Translation)
I kept telling her that when we run into issues, we need to remember Master’s teachings and align our actions with them. She understood and then kept reminding me to send righteous thoughts more and do more intensive Fa-study.
When the old forces realized that they couldn’t move me with sentimentality, they changed their approach. They had me constantly imagine how I would be persecuted: How I would meet with people from the Procuratorate? What they would ask? How would I answer? And so on. Though I kept sending forth righteous thoughts, I couldn’t dispel them nor suppress them—those scenes kept coming to mind.
Just then, a practitioner came over, saying that she couldn’t locate her e-books on her device. But when I took a look, I saw them right away. I knew Master arranged for her to come see me. She’d had the same experience as me, but she finally overcame the tribulation with righteous thoughts.
I asked her, “Back then, did those bad things pop up in your mind? How did you deal with it?” She said that she recalled Master’s words: “… just by remaining unmoved you could handle all situations.” (“Teaching the Fa at the 2005 Canada Fa Conference,” Collected Fa Teachings, Vol. V).
Then she was able to snap out of that state. After hearing what she said, whenever something bad came to mind, I just kept reciting the Fa.
In a few days, the old forces changed their approach again to make me feel depressed. They made me think that the case was very big, and with another case added on, how big that would be. Even though I sent forth righteous thoughts more intensively, I still felt a bit down. When I recited Master’s Fa, I could suppress those thoughts, but as soon as I stopped, they began to pop into my mind again.
When I was at my wit’s end, Master empowered me and had me come across this quote in our Fa-study:
“… and you shouldn’t attach too much importance to those activities in and of themselves. The bigger you perceive the challenges to be, the harder things will be to carry out, since “the appearance stems from the mind.” And so the task will become increasingly burdensome.” (“Fa Teaching Given at the Epoch Times Meeting,” Collected Fa Teachings, Vol. X)
I felt my heart lighten, and my depression was instantly wiped away. Deep down, once again, I appreciated Master’s protection and strengthening of my righteous thoughts.
Though the old forces could still interfere with me and kept casting bad ideas into my mind, I didn’t stop reciting the Fa. One day, while listening to Fa-rectification cultivation sharing articles on a Minghui podcast, one quoted Master:
“The truth is, anything that is not consistent with Dafa or the righteous thoughts of Dafa disciples results from the old forces’ involvement, and that includes all of the unrighteous elements that you have.” (“On the Responses to the Piece About Assistant Souls”)
It made me finally see through the old forces. Whatever interfered with me and put my mind in a turmoil were all old forces’ things. I sent forth righteous thoughts to completely and fundamentally eliminate that persecution by the old forces.
The matter of my release on bail lasted for over a month. Then I was notified by the police station that the Procuratorate had decided to withdraw the case.
I enlightened that when a tribulation comes, one needs to continuously study the Fa and break through with one’s righteous thoughts.