(Minghui.org) I am 15 years old this year. I recently completed my middle school examinations and was accepted into a prestigious, province-level high school with the minimum qualifying score. It was a miracle.
During my first year in middle school, I began to behave abnormally. I often felt as if there was something in front of my eyes and I kept using my hands to push it away. I performed actions dozens of times, such as washing my hands, emptying the rubbish, or writing a word and then erasing it repeatedly. My mind was overwhelmed with bad thoughts and I cried in school because I did not know what was wrong with me.
My teacher noticed my behavior and asked my mother to take me to a doctor. The doctor said I had obsessive compulsive disorder. I was given medication but the medicine had many side effects. I slept for long periods of time and had no appetite. My family then took me to the village to try alternative therapies for my problem. In the end a lot of money was spent, but to no avail.
My mother had been practicing Falun Dafa since 1997. She persuaded my father and grandparents to let me give the practice a try. They agreed as a last resort. Many bad thoughts kept popping up in my mind at first as I read the Fa. As a result I often had to read a sentence ten times before I understood what I was reading. I became very agitated. Many tiny bumps subsequently appeared on my face and head, and I kept scratching until I was bleeding.
Master Li gave me a hint in a dream to do the exercises more often. I also persisted in reading the Fa with my mother. I was gradually able to read from several pages to two full lectures per day, and became able to read the Fa more and more fluently. I'm grateful to Master for removing my bad thoughts!
My complexion became rosy after practicing Falun Dafa, and my temperament changed completely. In the past, I got into fights with boys even though I'm a girl, and I hurt a lot of people as a result of my bad temper. I consequently did not have many friends at school.
I told myself that as a practitioner I should follow Master's teachings and not retaliate when others treat me badly. As I practiced this, my circle of friends grew. I once asked a classmate to help me with a question. The person in front of him said, “Don't help her. Let her solve the problem herself.” I was hurt by this, and felt like crying. I then remembered that I was a practitioner. This was a test to see if my heart was moved. I let it go.
This classmate later asked the person sitting next to me to show him how to complete an assignment. The classmate refused to show him. I hesitated, then gave him what I wrote. I had previously told several classmates that I was practicing Falun Dafa. I wanted to let them know that Dafa practitioners were kind. He was touched by my action. He said, “Next time if you need help with any problems, just ask me.”
A classmate who was in the same class with me since primary school said, “If you were that nice in primary school, everyone would have loved to be friends with you.” I told her that practicing Dafa has made me a better person. As a result, all my close friends now know that Dafa is good.
Practicing Falun Dafa also unlocked my wisdom. In an exam during my second year, I came in first despite not attending school for three months!
I wanted to get into a prestigious high school as a way to validate Dafa. I was in an average class. With our current results, very few can make it into a good high school. Several teachers and classmates know that I am a practitioner. If I was accepted into a good school, it would show people how extraordinary Falun Dafa is.
Therefore, although the chances of success were very slim, I decided to put in an application to enroll in an arts school. To improve my state of cultivation, I started to memorize the Fa. No matter how late it was at night after I finished my studies, I persisted in memorizing the Fa by heart. Even though I slept less, I was able to stay alert at school the next day. In contrast, other students who slept longer fell asleep in class. I knew this was the power of Dafa.
I thought I could rely on Master and not have to work hard in my studies. As a result I did not do as well on two major exams.
Master said,
“In teaching the Fa, I have talked about the principle whereby a school student who does his schoolwork well will naturally be admitted to college, whereas a school student who is attached to being admitted to college but who doesn’t do his schoolwork well won’t be admitted. It isn’t wrong for a cultivator to wish to reach Consummation, but your mind should be on the Fa. While continually cultivating you will unwittingly meet the standard for Consummation.” (“Eliminate Your Last Attachment(s)” from Essentials for Further Advancement II)
I began to treat my studies seriously. Amazingly I came in first in a subsequent exam. I was one step closer to my goal, but then another test of my xinxing appeared. After the final exams, I compared my answers with those of my friends. It seemed that I had many mistakes. I hid under the blanket and cried. My mother advised me to leave everything to Master's arrangement. I asked Master for help to eliminate my human attachments.
That night I had a dream. I was standing by the window. The sky was very blue and I saw clouds passing by rapidly. Master was telling me that everything in this world is transient just like these clouds! During group Fa study, fellow practitioners shared and encouraged me. I tried my best to let go of my anxiety.
A few days later the results came out. I had obtained four points over the qualifying score. I was ecstatic and grateful to Master for helping me. My relatives gave me money to celebrate the occasion. Unfortunately, for several days I slacked off in Fa study.
Master said:
“If you don’t look at positive or happy developments as a practitioner should, and just get happy like an ordinary person would, then it will lead to a tribulation for you, since you are a practitioner.” ( “2018 Fa Teaching Given in Washington, D.C”)
A few days ago, I was told that the school I wanted to enroll in was full. They can only take 30 students and the last person accepted scored four points more than me. My heart sank. The only way I could get in was if someone dropped out. The school would then accept the person with the next best score. My score was four points less than the last person enrolled. There could be many candidates between this four point gap. Hence the chances of my getting in were very small.
I was very disappointed, but I told myself to have faith in Master. I kept asking Master for help to eliminate my attachment. I felt Master clean up a lot of bad substances in my body.
The next day when I got home from Fa study, my mother gave me a letter of acceptance from the high school. I wept with happiness. Only two of us in my class got into the school and we will be in the same class in the future. I am deeply grateful for Master's arrangements for me!