(Minghui.org) My understanding of the Fa has increased a lot over the last few years, and I have noticed that people and things around me have also changed.
I remember when I first started my job as a teacher, I had not been diligent and did not clarify the facts to my students because I had a lot of fear.
Overcoming My Fear to Express My Thoughts
I studied the Fa a lot, wanting to break through my attachment of fear before telling them about Falun Dafa.
The students didn’t listen at first. Some laughed at me, and others fiercely opposed me. I knew it was because my words lacked strength, as my energy field wasn’t sufficiently upright and pure. I was timid. If anyone disagreed with me, I stopped talking. I had a strong attachment to “self” and was afraid of losing face.
It took at least half a year before I was able to thoroughly express my thoughts when talking to people about Dafa, and I repeatedly spoke to students who disagreed with me. I wouldn’t have dared to even think of doing that previously.
After I was able to overcome my fears, some students actually listened to me clarify the facts and quit the Chinese Communist Party (CCP).
I had a dream where I was in another dimension, walking down a long, open road while holding three flowers. It was incredibly beautiful, and I knew that Master was encouraging me.
Afraid of Being Reported
However, I soon discovered another fear. I was afraid that students would report me to their parents. I was afraid after every lesson for quite some time. Due to this fear, some parents called and yelled at me, while others came to my house and threatened to report me to the police.
When a parent's call came in, I felt as if my heart had stopped beating. My entire body was ice cold, and my mind went blank.
After studying the Fa and sending forth righteous thoughts, I realized that these were all illusions. There is nothing wrong with clarifying the facts in order to save people.
If I was to break through this obstacle, I needed to forget about my “self” and my attachment to fear, while continuing to raise my xinxing. Only then would I be able to eliminate this issue at its root.
I could very clearly feel my righteous energy emerge while speaking to students. I knew that I was doing the most righteous thing in the entire universe, so I spoke with a lot of energy. Almost all of my students agreed to quit the CCP.
Students Improve Their Behavior
But I began to fear that students would find out that I was a Falun Dafa practitioner, so I spoke from a third-person perspective. When students asked me about myself, I pretended not to hear them and didn't respond. Actually, it was because of this fear that they often asked me about myself.
In an effort to avoid their questions, after a student had quit the CCP, I wouldn’t mention the topic again.
As time went on, some students began to participate in CCP activities. I regretted that I had focused only on their quitting the Party without clarifying the facts more thoroughly.
I tried to be more thorough when I talked to students and integrated stories about traditional culture into each class. I began to behave according to the standards of Dafa. When I came across students with relationship issues or students who smoked or fought, I no longer felt that their problems didn’t matter. I instead patiently and firmly explained correct behavior, leading them in a more righteous direction.
The students gradually improved their behavior quite a bit. The Party culture and atheist notions began to fade from their minds and were replaced with a belief in Gods and Buddhas.
Parents then noticed the changes in their children, and many called to thank me. I knew this was because of the righteous energy of Dafa, which can rectify any abnormal condition.
Some students began to start asking me questions, which I openly answered. When I have no fear, sentient beings react to the Fa positively, and many started to practice Falun Dafa.
A Duty to Help Others Obtain the Fa
Soon a new issue arose. Due to a tight school schedule, some students began to give up on cultivation. Because of my selfishness, I thought that, as long as I had gotten them to quit the CCP, then my duty was complete. Whether or not they continued to practice wasn’t a big deal, so I didn’t mind.
Thinking that these students would just give up cultivation anyway, I didn’t put as much attention into helping them to study the Fa. This was the case until a few months ago.
After one student had quit the CCP, she discovered that I was a Dafa practitioner and expressed her desire to learn the practice.
I asked her how she had done on the test, and she said that she had earned 80 or 90 points. Jokingly, I told her that if she could get 100 points (out of 120), I would show Dafa to her. She became angry and accused me of not wanting to help her.
She called me two days later. Her test score was exactly 100 points. I was stunned. I realized that it was my selfishness and laziness that had hindered a sentient being's chance to obtain the Fa.
Master said,
“It’s not that you go save people, since you’re still practicing cultivation and you definitely can’t save people. But your introducing the Fa to others is the best way to help them obtain the Fa. People in the future will know how precious It is. No matter how much money you give someone or how many good things you give someone, it isn’t as good as giving him the Fa.” (From “Teaching the Fa at a New York Meeting” in Lectures in the United States)
I realized how sacred introducing the Fa is, so I sent forth righteous thoughts to eliminate my laziness. I concentrated on helping the student, who became a very diligent cultivator.
Despite nearing a major test date, she still found precious time to study the Fa. Even though that meant she had less time for her school studies, her grades continually improved. Her behavior also improved a lot, as she learned to cultivate her xinxing.
In a dream, my hands were covered with Udumbara flowers in another dimension. I understood that Master was encouraging me. I knew that Master was happy to see the diligence of a new Dafa disciple.
Looking back over the past three to four years of gradually removing my attachment to fear and clarifying the facts, it’s great that I never gave up or lost my way. Master has been leading me step by step, allowing me to walk on the most righteous path and helping me to remove my attachments.
At the same time, I was able to see the strength and magnificence of the Fa and righteous thoughts. I will continue to improve myself in the Fa and ultimately return to my true home.
Category: Improving Oneself
