(Minghui.org) My husband, who is a practitioner, now understands the importance of sending forth righteous thoughts after passing the test of life and death.
Since last July, an illusion of sickness karma had been showing up. This included losing weight, feeling thirsty, and tremendous weakness.
He did not pay too much attention to the symptoms at the beginning, as he thought he was eliminating karma, and that the symptoms would disappear in a few days.
However, he lost weight quickly, drank a lot of water every day, and became weaker and weaker physically. As a result, he could not even go out to distribute truth clarifying materials as usual.
One day, he was exhausted after distributing the materials. He told me that he felt awful.
He left more than 100 fliers in one apartment building. He then saw that the janitor had already collected half of them. This kind of incident had never happened before, and it began to draw our attention.
We made sure to regularly send forth righteous thoughts and woke up at 3:00 a.m. to practice the exercises every day. However, his condition was still getting worse. He could not even get up from bed!
We recognized the seriousness of his situation, and so our whole family began to send forth righteous thoughts together for him.
We also read Falun Dafa books and searched inward to find our shortcomings. However, his condition still did not stabilize that much. Sometimes he was better, but sometimes he got worse.
One day, I made a phone call to our local group coordinator, Mei (alias) and asked her for some help.
When she arrived, we were really surprised that she was in the same situation. She was exhausted and had to lie down on the couch right away after entering our home.
We felt pretty guilty. If we had known of her condition, we would not have asked her to come to our home.
Mei told us that several fellow practitioners in our area had very similar situations. It seemed that the old forces had taken an opportunity to persecute local practitioners again.
It was no wonder why the Minghui website started to have more articles concerning enhancing our righteous thoughts.
After talking to Mei, we felt much better, and my husband's condition seemed to improve a little.
Once he realized the nature of the situation, his condition began to turn in the right direction. He even found a new job.
However, it was too early to celebrate; My husband's physical condition turned for the worse just two weeks later.
He was even thinner than before. His body weight dropped from 148 pounds down to about 115 pounds.
He had already searched inward many times, but could not find any more shortcomings.
I was also nervous for him and tried to encourage him to strengthen his righteous thoughts. I often recited the “Don't Be Sad,” in Hong Yin Volume II to him,
“Imprisoned as you are,don’t be sorrowful or sadCarry on with righteous thoughts and actions,and the Fa is with youCalmly reflect on the attachments you haveRemove your human thoughtsand evil will naturally die out”
Although it was easy to say, it was very difficult to maintain righteous thoughts while passing the tribulations.
For example, when he had constipation for four to five days, a sudden thought surfaced, “why not try to use a laxative?”
He sensed that the concept was not right and denied it right away. When we are mentally weak, the old forces could take this as an opportunity to make trouble.
We realized that we needed to immediately deny it, and leave no opportunity for it to interfere with us.
After a few days, my husband and I went to Mei's home to pick up some materials for making calendars. He felt a little better after that.
Mei and another practitioner came to our home the next day. We studied the Fa and sent forth righteous thoughts together.
My husband surprisingly was able to read one entire lecture of Zhuan Falun without stopping. Everyone was happy for him.
In this period of time, my husband really went through the test of life and death. He also realized the meaning of righteous thoughts, and that all the physical hardships and discomfort are just illusions.
If you accept that your body is weak, the old forces will strengthen that idea, and let you feel that you are really ill. It is just like the story told in Zhuan Falun,
“… there once was a person who was tied to a bed. They took one of his arms and claimed that they would slit it to make it bleed. Then they blindfolded his eyes and scratched his wrist once. (He was not at all cut and bleeding.) A water faucet was turned on so that he could hear water dripping, and he thus thought that it was his blood that was dripping. The man died shortly afterwards.”
We are Master's disciples. Only Master's words count. Master also said in Zhuan Falun,
“There is a principle in our universe: Nobody will intervene if you want something yourself. As long as it is what you want, nobody will intervene.”
It is the same for whatever we don't want. Other people cannot give us what we don't want.
Since then, his righteous thoughts have been getting stronger, and his health has been getting better.
Most of the time, we feel that we have understood enough about Master's words. However, we still became stuck in certain tribulations and could not get out of them.
It was because we only understood Master's words on the surface, instead of truly believing them from the bottom of our hearts.
If our heart changes, the entire environment can change! That is, we need to conform to the law of the universe.
