(Minghui.org) This is the second time that I've memorized the book Zhuan Falun. It took me about 10 months. When I first memorized Zhuan Falun about 10 years ago it took me about 18 months. I've tried to memorize the book twice since then, but I could not finish.
Last September, I decided to try again, and I told myself not to stop in the middle. I have a full-time job and have to work overtime two evenings each week. I usually memorize Zhuan Falun on the evenings that I'm free, plus on weekends and holidays.
I also read Master's other lectures as well as the Minghui Weekly. I know that Fa-rectification is very serious and I have to be diligent.
Memorizing the Fa is also a process of improving xinxing. When my mind is calm, it's easy. When I can't focus, the progress is slow and I often make mistakes. I send forth righteous thoughts each time before I memorize the Fa to eliminate interference.
I had many realizations within these 10 months, and I'd like to share two of them with you.
The first is about the attachment to lust. When I memorized the part about lust in Lecture 6 of Zhuan Falun, it went smoothly and I could remember it after reading it two or three times. I think it was probably because I had done well in that aspect of my cultivation. I am 51 and my husband is 53, but he does not practice. Both of us are healthy and we stopped having sexual relations about two years ago. I knew some practitioners wanted to achieve this, but had difficulty. For us it was very natural. Although we still sleep in the same bed, we do not engage in sexual activity.
In Zhuan Falun, Master said,
“The other day I said that the Buddha-light illuminates everywhere and rectifies all abnormalities. In other words, the energy scattered from our bodies can rectify all abnormal conditions. Therefore, under the effects of this field, if you do not think about these things, you will unintentionally restrain your spouse as well. If you do not and will not think of them, your spouse will not think of them, either.”
I think my situation is like this.
My second experience is that, when my mind was very calm while memorizing the Fa, I felt as though I were doing the sitting mediation. It was a very sacred and serene sensation.
I remembered this clearly when I was memorizing the following paragraph in Lecture 8 of Zhuan Falun,
“We also have a meditation exercise. How do we practice meditation? We require of everyone that no matter how deeply you meditate, you must know that you are practicing here. You are absolutely forbidden to be in a state of trance wherein you know nothing. Then, what specific state will occur? When you sit there, you should feel wonderful and very comfortable as though you are sitting inside an egg shell; you will be aware of yourself practicing the exercise, but you feel that your whole body cannot move. This is what must occur in our practice. There is another state in which as one sits for a while, one finds that the legs are gone, and cannot think where the legs went; the body is also gone; the arms are also gone; the hands are also gone—only the head is left. As one keeps practicing, one finds that the head is gone as well, leaving only one’s own mind, a little thought that one is practicing here. It is sufficient if we can achieve this state. Why is this? When one practices in this state, the body is being fully transformed, and it is the optimum state. We thus require you to achieve this state of tranquility. However, you should not fall asleep or lose consciousness, otherwise good things might be practiced by someone else.”
For a long time after I memorized this paragraph, whenever I did the sitting mediation, I recalled those words and I felt very peaceful.
For the past 11 years, I have been doing the morning exercises with practitioners around the world. I get up at 3:35 a.m. to do all five sets of exercises. Then I send forth righteous thoughts at 6 a.m., followed by cleaning, cooking breakfast, and then I go to work. This does not bother my husband at all.
While memorizing the Fa, I've had many understandings that are difficult to put into words. I just want to say that I am very thankful for Falun Dafa and Master. I also hope that other practitioners and I will cherish this precious time and can save more people.
Category: Improving Oneself
