(Minghui.org) Shortly after I obtained the Fa in 1999, the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) began persecuting Falun Gong. Seeing TV news slandering it brought me to tears. I knew Falun Gong was good, but I decided that I wouldn't practice until sometime in the future.
I put cultivation aside until I started again in 2004. To catch up with Teacher’s Fa-rectification, I studied and memorized the Fa and got up every morning to do the exercises. I sent righteous thoughts at the four set times every day. During my renewed cultivation, I experienced Teacher's compassion, realized the seriousness of Dafa practice, and I also witnessed the power of righteous thoughts.
I work as a teacher in a school. One morning, the marble floor was slippery because the janitor had just mopped it. I accidentally fell and hurt my foot. Feeling embarrassed, I ignored the pain and stood up, thinking that because I was a Dafa practitioner everything would be fine. I kept reciting Master’s Fa,
“When it’s difficult to endure, you can endure it. When it’s impossible to do, you can do it.” (Zhuan Falun)
I needed to teach two classes that morning. A colleague helped me get to the classroom. Students noticed that I wouldn't put weight on my foot, so they found a chair for me. However, I am used to standing while giving lectures, so I managed to stand on one leg and taught the two classes.
After I went home at noon, my foot turned dark purple and became so swollen that I needed help from my husband to remove my shoe. I wanted to lay on the bed and rest for a while. But, the pain was so severe that I couldn't stop crying. My husband suggested that I go to the hospital. I told him not to worry, and said I would be fine in a while.
When the pain became unbearable, in my mind, I asked Teacher to help me and reduce the pain so I could endure it. Shortly afterward, I fell asleep and woke up with no pain. I knew that Teacher had borne the pain for me. My husband was watching TV. I hopped on one foot, leaned against walls and chairs, and managed to cook dinner.
My nephew drove me to school to teach two classes that evening. He gave me a ride again the next day. My foot was no longer swollen by the third day, and I was able to slowly walk to school by myself. The accident didn't hold me up in any way.
Although my foot was no longer painful, I could feel a hard bump on the back of it. I thought it might be bone. When practicing the exercises one morning, I heard noises coming from the foot, but felt no pain. The bump disappeared after I finished the exercises.
I thought about Teacher’s words,
“We have said that good or evil comes from a person’s spontaneous thought, and the thought at that moment can bring about different consequences.” (Zhuan Falun)
If I had gone to the hospital after the fall, I probably would have had a broken bone. In that case, I might not have recovered in three months, but I recovered in three days. Thank you Teacher for bearing the pain for me and repairing my foot. I am very grateful to have Teacher’s protection.
One time, the school organized physical examinations for all teachers. I joined this activity, thinking that I was healthy, and my good health could validate the Fa. Unexpectedly, the exam results showed that I had gallstones, an abnormally hard area in my breast, and a gynecological disease. Taking the exam hadn't validated the Fa, but had added a psychological burden to myself.
From time to time, I tried to feel whether there was any pain in my body. I felt back pains after eating high protein foods such as eggs, fish and meat. However, I did not think of it as an illness. I often memorized the Fa and sent righteous thoughts to remove the pain during such an episode.
Then one day, the pain was so severe that I couldn't sleep laying down. I could only sleep while sitting, and my breathing was labored. The pain did not go away even after I memorized the Fa, sent righteous thoughts and looked inward. I could not eat for a few days, which made me dizzy and weak. This situation lasted for a long time.
After talking with fellow practitioners and looking inward, I realized that I hadn't let go of the attachment to sentimentality, nor totally denied the illusions of sickness. In essence, when I admitted to having illnesses, intentionally or unintentionally, I wasn't fully believing in Teacher or the Fa.
Teacher said:
“If you go to a fortune-teller, aren’t you listening to and believing him? Then, doesn’t it create a psychological burden for you? Isn’t it an attachment if you burden yourself with thinking about it? So how can this attachment be removed? Haven’t you self-imposed an additional tribulation on yourself? Won’t you have to suffer more to give up this attachment? Every test or every tribulation is related to the matter of either progression or regression in cultivation. It is already difficult, yet still you add this self-imposed tribulation. How can you overcome it? You might come across hardships or troubles as a result of it.”
I had brought self-imposed tribulations to myself. This was a big lesson to me. One fellow practitioner in my group did not take the physical exam. She told me that practitioners don't have illnesses, so there was nothing to check. The results of a checkup could be illusions. Compared to her, I lacked understanding of validating the Fa. I knew my health was good since I practiced Dafa. Others often commented that I looked young.
There is no small matter in cultivation. Higher beings and humans are distinguished by the way they think. Any human attachment can be used by the old forces to make things worse and to destroy practitioners.
I wrote about my attachments to expose them and to negate the illusions of sickness karma, to remove the attachment to sentimentality, and to share my lessons with other practitioners.
Cultivation is serious. Practitioners must be righteous in cultivation and abandon human reasoning and sentiment. Firmly believe in Teacher and the Fa. Only the practitioners with righteous thoughts and behaviors can truly assist Teacher in Fa-rectification.