(Minghui.org) During a shift of text-messaging, a conversation with another practitioner woke me up and made me reevaluate my attitude about helping to save people.
In the beginning, I wanted to go out to clarify the facts to people face to face, but something always prevented me from doing so. Thus, I turned to the phone-calling platform instead. However, after making calls for a few days, I didn't want to participate anymore.
I then turned to text messaging because I presumed that it would be easier, and it is also considered helping to save people.
Though, I didn't participate in the messaging with a serious attitude–I felt like I was just going through the motions. During a shift, after I organized phone numbers and sent out the messages, I did household chores or other personal tasks while still on duty.
Recently, I began to feel that something wasn't right. Although it is easier to send messages than talk to people, the messaging work still plays an important role in saving people and my attitude directly affects the results.
I realized that I did not put enough thought and effort into what I was doing. However, I did not address the situation or rectify my methods right away.
It was only two weeks ago that I faced a matter regarding this. As there were very few numbers on my list, it didn't take long to message them all. However, the immediate call pick-up rate was very low–this had not happened to me before.
The practitioner in charge asked me if I had sent the text messages in advance, and I said yes. He then had a serious talk with me: “We should not just mind our own part. We should work together and give each number a call before sending the messages. This will be more effective. Also, each message should not be solely based on a generic script; it should be adjusted to specific cases. Only when we cooperate will we help save people.”
The practitioner's words struck me hard. I looked inward and realized that I have a lot of pride, and my attitude toward my tasks wasn't serious enough. After realizing my problems, I quickly rectified my thinking.
I chose and edited the message content and sent it to the supervising practitioner for further edits. We worked cooperatively. Now, I don't feel like there is nothing to do during a shift—I even feel that there isn't enough time. I am more aware of the urgency of saving people.
I felt that text messaging was a very simple task, but it also reflects my mindset and attitude—my cultivation state.
If I don't put in enough effort, and only half-heartedly complete the tasks, the results won't be good. I also realized that once I have completed all tasks assigned, if there is time left in my shift, I can send righteous thoughts. I also overheard other practitioners saying that it would be helpful if a practitioner sent righteous thoughts while others sent the messages.
I always wanted to help in this aspect, but did not because I had a lot of attachments obstructing my thinking. I believe that our degree of determination to complete the tasks and the amount of thought and effort that we put into doing them all reveal our attitude about saving people. We should not perform tasks unwillingly or just for the sake of doing something. Otherwise, I will let myself down and disappoint the waiting beings and Master.
Throughout my cultivation, Master had given me many hints regarding my attachments. For example, a few days ago in a dream, another practitioner said to me: “Your luggage is the heaviest, how do you carry it? What will you do?” After I woke up, I realized that I should let go of my attachments quickly and do what I am supposed to do. Both the text-messaging and shift cycles are all part of my cultivation journey. I should improve every day; this is a really serious matter.
A few days ago, I arrived home at 2:00 a.m. after participating in a parade in Hong Kong. Since I had to work in the morning, I asked another practitioner to take over my messaging shift later that day. Yet, when I returned home after work, the practitioner complained that I always rely on her to take over my shifts, and told me to work with the numbers that she had organized by myself. I became very upset.
My husband also pointed out some attachments that were between that practitioner and me and said that I should quit if I couldn't do the Monday shift well. I also came up with many reasons for quitting, and thought of asking the supervisor to find someone to replace me.
I asked myself: Should I really quit? This is my responsibility, this is what I have promised to do, and I cannot quit in the middle of the project. If I did, wouldn’t I be falling into a trap set by the old forces? Not only will it pose a barrier between the practitioners and me, I would be allowing the evil forces to exploit my loopholes, which would bring an unfavorable outcome.
Nothing happens without a reason. I looked inwards.
I did not have a serious attitude while messaging to save people, and had asked people to take over my responsibilities every now and then. This is a problem within my cultivation. I told my husband: “This is the result of my inadequacy—no one else's.” After realizing this, I felt calm.
I will do the three things with a serious attitude. There are no small matters in cultivation, and we should treat everything seriously.