(Minghui.org) Before I started practicing Falun Dafa I was unhappy, confused, and in great pain. I even had suicidal thoughts after I graduated from college. I wanted to understand why I was experiencing all of this.
I was very interested in the Buddhist scriptures and joined a local Buddhist group through WeChat, a social messaging service in China. Then one day in 2012, I received an email containing information about the Falun Dafa books. I finished reading all of the book Zhuan Falun in one session and believed that if there really was a righteous way in the world, it must be Falun Dafa.
Fascinating Experiences
I often had nightmares and sleep paralysis, but after I obtained the Fa I had a subconscious thought, “Falun Dafa is good.” Immediately, I felt an explosion at the back of my head—“Boom.” I awoke and was able to move again. This experience strengthened my confidence in the practice.
Recently, during my sleep my primordial spirit left the body and floated up, weightless. I saw myself in the half-lotus position, rapidly flying upward. I was very excited, yet apprehensive. I was rising so quickly that I saw the moon ahead. At the bottom of the moon was an ancient Chinese palace. I also saw a shiny pavilion-like structure on top of a cloud.
When I woke up, I knew that this had confirmed for me the presence of the primordial spirit, alternate dimensions, and palaces in other dimensions. It also motivated me to write this article.
Improving My Xinxing
I have faced many xinxing tests since I started practicing Falun Dafa.
My colleague's son came to the office one time. He was very mischievous. While I was sitting on the office chair, he poured water all over my head. I was not provoked in the slightest. Another colleague saw what happened and said, “You have such a good temper!”
I used to have a strong sense of pride. If I felt that anyone made a joke that went too far or was being too disrespectful towards me, I would have had a fit, even to the point of throwing chairs around the room. I hardly thought about my own wrongdoings and always felt that my outbursts were justified and that others were at fault–not me. However, since I started practicing Falun Dafa I no longer think this way.
After returning home from shopping one time, I realized that I had brought home a few pairs of socks that were not paid for. When I took them back to the mall to pay for them, the supervisor was very surprised, and said, “There is nobody like you in society today.”
I used to work in the town's government office and won first prize in a ping pong competition. The prize was a set of expensive bed covers. I recalled the example given in Zhuan Falun, where a Dafa practitioner's son won second prize in a lottery, so the man gave the prize-equivalent in money back to his company. I didn't believe it was right for me to take the bed covers as they were so expensive, but I also didn't want to hurt the feelings of the event organizers, so I accepted a towel instead.
When I came to my current workplace, the supervisor promised that I would have a place to sleep in the workplace, but I didn't receive it. I did not make a fuss about it and rented a house instead. Also, when I took a bus during business trips, I did not ask to be reimbursed, even though it was very common for my colleagues to do so. All this is because I have improved my xinxing through learning the Fa.
Letting People Know about Falun Dafa
I once bought a heater online. I ordered a white one, but I was sent a gold one. When I phoned the supplier to inform them of the error, I used the opportunity to see what he knew about Falun Dafa. “You know, I practice Falun Dafa,” I said. “It is not like what the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) says. Falun Dafa talks about Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance. I do not need a replacement or any compensation for the mistaken heater. I just wanted you to know that Falun Dafa is good.”
I used to work in the town's government office with another practitioner, and many colleagues knew that I practiced Falun Dafa, including the Town Party Secretary. One day, he found me and asked, “Why do you learn Falun Dafa, and not Buddhism or Marxism instead?”
I replied, “People go to the temples just to pray for wealth and peace, not to mention how Marxism teaches people to behave. These are not what I want. Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is what I want.”
As a practitioner I know that I must let people know about Dafa, so I started to talk to people online. I was a bit irrational at first and had a strong attachment to fear.
I’ve come to understand that our mighty virtue does not come from our enduring the CCP’s persecution, but rather from our actions in standing up against the persecution.
I still talk to people online and have now started my own materials production site. I have bought a printer and CD burner to make my own informational materials about Dafa and the persecution, and I distribute them.
I have also started to contact practitioners in nearby areas, and have spoken to friends and colleagues about the importance of quitting the CCP and its affiliated organizations.
I know that what I have done is still far from Master’s expectations. I have helped a few people to quit the Party, but I still have some attachments yet to be eliminated. I will work harder and harder to improve myself.
Thank you, Master, for your compassionate and arduous salvation!
