(Minghui.org) I feel deeply that only by studying the Fa well can I do the three things well and keep up with the progress of Fa-rectification.
My parents started practicing Falun Dafa in the spring of 1997 through the introduction of a neighbor.
My father’s celestial eye was opened as soon as he started the practice, and he could see tiny figures of gods and deities sitting on his shoulders and arms while doing the sitting meditation. In order to keep a calm mind in cultivation, he asked Master to close his celestial eye.
My mother had suffered all kinds of illnesses since a young age and was known for being sickly. Miraculously, all her illnesses went away through practicing Falun Gong, and both my parents became dedicated practitioners ever since. Our whole family was filled with happiness and harmony.
My younger sister and I were both university students at the time. I was in my final year at a medical college. As my specialty was Western medicine, I was not interested in Chinese medicine or qigong at all. However, seeing the changes in my parents, both my sister and I also began to practice Falun Gong later on.
Even though I have always held a firm belief in Master and the Fa and passed several tests with the guidance of Fa principles, I slacked off in cultivation as our environment became more relaxed.
I would put more effort in cultivation only when I encountered tests and difficulties, but would slack off again afterwards.
I spent a lot of time on my job and family affairs and studied the Fa only on my way to work and back home. When I was busy, I could not even maintain this limited Fa study, let alone engaging in truth-clarification work. The little bit I did was to print messages on banknotes and put up small posters in nearby residential communities.
In contrast, my mother is very diligent and doing well in face-to-face truth clarification in our hometown. She and local practitioners also set up a small material production site to supply the local area.
With my mother’s encouragement, I became involved in some truth-clarification projects and was responsible for technical issues for printers and the supply and replacement of equipment. I also made more truth-clarification materials to post whenever possible, either on my way to work or during weekend family activities.
In 2015, during the movement to sue Jiang Zemin, former head of the Communist Party who launched the persecution of Dafa, my mother and practitioners around her all filed criminal complaints using their real names against Jiang with the Supreme People's Court and Supreme People’s Procuratorate.
Afterwards, local police and Domestic Security officers harassed my mother many times.
Each time, my mother used the opportunity to tell them about Dafa and persuade them not to participate in the persecution. She told them the principle of karmic retribution and how good deeds are rewarded while evil is punished. In the end, they stopped harassing my mother, stating that “no charge will be made against her because of her age.”
I knew this outcome resulted from my mother’s strong righteous thoughts and Master’s compassionate protection.
My mother felt that many bad substances in her body were taken away from her after she filed the lawsuit against Jiang Zemin. She became even more diligent in solid cultivation.
The changes in my mother enabled me to see how far behind I was. After I studied Master’s “Fa Teaching at the 2016 New York Fa Conference,” I found many human attachments I was still holding onto. I thought to myself that time was so precious and that I must make more effort and catch up.
Lately, I found it hard to study the Fa with a calm mind with job changes and small domestic problems. I decided to memorize and recite the Fa, which I had tried before but failed to keep up.
This time, I started with reciting the new version of Lunyu every day and decided to recite Zhuan Falun again. I experienced the magnificent feeling of immersing myself in the Fa while reciting the Fa word by word and sentence by sentence. I was also able to find many of my hidden attachments.
My husband does not practice Dafa. In the past, I always tried to balance our family life on a superficial level. I would not argue with my husband, avoided direct conflicts, and did a good job of housework. I thought I could gradually change him by doing these things well, yet there continued to be a distance between us.
Through Fa study, I could see a deeply hidden attachment to resentment on my part. In the past, when I felt tired from housework, I would develop a feeling of resentment. My husband and I found faults in each other. Sometimes, I would also make conditions in my mind: “If you don’t let my family stay with us when they come to Beijing, I would refuse to let your family stay with us, whether they are here for medical treatment or on business. If you are not kind enough to my mother, I would not talk to your family either when we visit them,” and so on.
I realized that all these are human attachments and that I was trying to deal with conflicts using human sentimentality. I was looking externally instead of looking within to let go of my “self-protection.”
These days, I listen to recordings of Minghui articles and “Remembering Master’s Grace,” or I recite the Fa while doing house chores or on my way to somewhere so that my mind would not drift away to think about everyday people’s trivia. I now care for my husband from my heart instead of just cooking and washing his clothes out of habit. Gradually, I began to see changes in his attitude.
He often goes to bed late at night. In order not to disturb me, he decided to sleep in a different room so that I could study the Fa in the evening and get up early to do the exercises in the morning.
Sometimes, he would talk to me about the trouble he had at work. In the past, I would think in my heart, “You run into these problems because you do not have the principles of 'Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance' as your yardstick.” I even criticized him for being narrow-minded. By and by, he stopped talking to me about anything that bothered him.
Nowadays, when he complains about something, I would try to understand the situation from his perspective and share with him based on the Fa principles at a level he can understand. He has become more responsive when we talk and often nods and says, “Yes, you are right!”
When I study the Fa well, things around me have also changed for the better. My child has been admitted to a selective high school near our home. I have a new job that is not demanding and suits my professional skills very well. Best yet, I now have more time to study the Fa.
I feel deeply in my heart that only by studying the Fa well can we do the three things well. I will continue to be more diligent in cultivation and walk my path well and return home with Master.
The above is only my personal experience. Please kindly point out anything improper.