(Minghui.org) Looking back at my cultivation path since I started practicing Falun Dafa in 1998, I have experienced the happiness of being free of illnesses, and the worries of not being able to let go of my attachments; the hard times of distributing materials in the cold dead of night, and the joy of sentient beings making the right choice for their futures.
I would like to share a few of my experiences in trusting Master and the Fa, and letting go of my attachments.
In 2015, I filed a criminal complaint against Jiang Zemin, the former head of the Chinese Communist Party (CCP), for initiating the persecution of Falun Dafa on July 20, 1999.
Officials from the CCP's political and legal affairs committee, along with local police and the head of my work unit, started to harass me, and threatened to dismiss me from my work unit.
My Husband Becomes Irrational
My husband does not practice Falun Dafa, and was scared after the threats. Misled by the CCP's lies and propaganda about the practice, and being intimidated by the harassment, he started to curse at me, beat me, and even tried to stab me with a knife.
I ran outside and held the door shut behind me. He couldn't chase me, so he kept the knife by the door, waiting for me to come back in. I saw, from a crack in the door, that he was attempting to burn my copies of Master's teachings. When I rushed in, he grabbed the knife and put it to my neck, threatening to kill me.
I sent forth righteous thoughts and asked Master to protect me. I thought that I could let go of everything in this world. My husband lightly touched my ear with the knife and threw it to one side.
Raising Awareness
There used to be six or seven practitioners in my town, but over the years they left, until only two of us remained. The other practitioner later passed away from sickness karma. My mentality of dependence and fear had improved over the years, but it occasionally resurfaced, especially right after this practitioner passed away.
I had planned to distribute Falun Dafa information materials at a local market one day, but a feeling of fear arose in my mind. I felt lonely and helpless. I sent forth righteous thoughts, and said in my mind, “I am here to save sentient beings, and help Master in the Fa-rectification period. What I am going to do is righteous. The old forces are not allowed to interfere.” I then asked Master to strengthen me.
I calmed down, and took some Dafa informational materials to the market. I told people, “Get a copy of these materials to learn the truth. Remember, Falun Dafa is good.”
They were all taken within a short space of time. An elderly man asked for a DVD, but I had none left. I told him to wait while I went home to fetch more materials. The elderly man left happily with the Nine Commentaries on the Communist Party DVD.
I had no fear while distributing the materials, and they were all gone in no time.
I realized that everything would be all right as long as we believed in Master and had righteous thoughts. Master has arranged everything, and we just need to carry out our tasks.
My mentality of dependence disappeared through this experience, and allowed me to truly appreciate Master for his protection and encouragement.
