(Minghui.org) Several days ago, I had a dream that woke me up to my poor cultivation state and the seriousness of slacking off.
In the dream, I was studying the Fa with other practitioners. Everyone else sat in a circle, but I sat on the side. I was not focused on what I was reading and I thought of other things.
As we continued reading, a tall man entered the room. He walked towards me and sat down without looking at me. On his back, I could see lots of wounds, both new and old.
When the man looked at me I saw it was Master. I could feel his compassion as he looked at me with a smile and said, “It seems you are still enjoying your carefree days, right?” As soon as I heard this, many feelings welled up inside me including regret, sadness, loss, and despair. I rolled into a ball on the floor and cried out aloud, “Master, I am sorry, I am sorry...”
I had not been doing the {{three things} well lately. I could not keep up studying the Fa, doing the exercises, and sending forth righteous thoughts on a daily basis. When I sent righteous thoughts, I did not focus well and my mind wandered. This situation negatively affected my efforts to validate the Fa and tell others the truth about the persecution.
Gradually, my attachment to comfort grew and I began sleeping longer instead of doing the exercises and putting a lot more thought into what foods I would eat. Seeing that I wasted a lot of time, I felt bad. I knew I wasn't doing the things I was supposed to do.
When I look back now, I know it was because I had forgotten how serious cultivation is. I had allowed my attachment to comfort to grow until finally, I could not see how far I had stepped away from cultivation.
As I write this article, tears are streaming down my face. The dream I had is still so vivid and clear in my mind! I feel the deepest sorrow, both in this dimension and on microscopic levels. I know that because of my attachment to comfort, Master has been suffering for me, as shown by the old and new wounds on his back. However, Master did not reprimand me and instead still treated me with compassion.
As soon as woke up I knew that Master was giving me another chance, and was encouraging me to make the best use of the limited time to do better. As Dafa disciples, we have a great mission. But when the way we behave does not meet the requirement, do we realize what losses we have caused and what the consequences are?
I am sharing this experience because I hope we can all do better from now on. We are running out of time and opportunities to save people may not come again.
Category: Improving Oneself
