(Minghui.org) I started to practice Falun Dafa in 1999. I was very excited and started to memorize Zhuan Falun right away. However, it was more difficult than I had thought and I stopped after I had memorized two pages.
Trying to Improve Through Memorization
It took about 17 years before I decided to memorize Zhuan Falun again in 2016. I often felt sleepy when reading it. My mind was riddled with ordinary people's thoughts, and my thought karma was affecting me. Last and not least, I wanted to take a shortcut. I thought that memorizing the Fa was the fastest way to improve.
Although a lot of time had passed, I knew it was not going to be easy to memorize an entire book. I decided to memorize one page a day, which would mean about one year to memorize this Dafa book. If I could memorize two pages a day, it would take me only half a year. I decided to start my memorization on April 25, two days after I made my decision.
Encouragement
When I first started out, I felt my body becoming very light. I felt wonderful. My son kept encouraging me, “Mom, you have to continue, don't stop.”
I was energetic and confident, did not feel sleepy or tired, even though I memorized the Fa until midnight every day. I finished memorizing the entire book by July 12.
A dream on July 9 suggested that I received an admission letter from a college. My entrance score was 520, while the qualifying score was 480. After I woke up, I realized that Master was encouraging me.
Changing the Memorization Method
My method was clumsy. I cut each sentence into segments and then memorized sentence by sentence. Then, I combined four or five sentences, which was followed by an entire paragraph. I literately memorized the entire book twice word by word.
When I started to memorize Zhuan Falun a third time, a fellow practitioner shared how she went about it. She began by reading a few lines, and then she repeated these lines a couple of times. I tried her way. Wow! It was much better and saved me a lot of time.
Benefiting from Memorizing
Every time when I finished memorizing Zhuan Falun, my feelings changed. When I sent forth righteous thoughts after finishing my memorization, it was different. I could tell that all my cells were in harmony.
Since I started memorizing the Fa, my mind no longer was riddled with different thoughts. I could stay calm during meditation. I used to be scared to clarify the truth about Dafa because of the persecution, but now I am no longer afraid.
I also found and eliminated many attachments that were hidden to me in the past. Now, I understand that the Fa will rectify everything.
Since then, it has been so much easier to overcome difficulties. I can also get up and do the exercises in the early morning. Now, I get up at 3:40 a.m. every day to do the exercises.
My main consciousness became stronger, and I realized that many of the thoughts were actually not from my main consciousness, but from outside sources or from my attachments.
Recently I encountered interference. Whenever I tried to memorize Zhuan Falun, I felt my chest was tight, and wanted to stop memorizing. I realized that something must be wrong and decided that it was interference. I sent forth righteous thoughts, and the interference stopped.
Fighting Off a Fake Me
At that same time, I found that a fake me existed. This being is very selfish and is very good at protecting itself. It is very experienced and knows how to handle various situations. Words coming out of my mouth without thinking are actually from the fake me. It is so focused on protecting itself and getting more benefits. When my righteous thoughts are strong, I can deny its instruction and follow the Fa, but when I relax, it will control my words and behavior.
Although I have memorized the book more than seven times, I still cannot strictly follow the Fa at all times. When I slack off, the fake me will take charge. I will try to fend it off and improve in my cultivation.
Master said,
“Study the Fa and gain the Fa,Focus on how you study and cultivate,Let each and every thing be measured against the Fa.Only then, with that, is it actually cultivation.” (“Solid Cultivation” from Hong Yin)
Category: Improving Oneself
