Further Looking Within Resolves a Conflict

(Minghui.org) I had a conflict with an 80-year-old practitioner in 2010 when I was staying at her house to make truth-clarification materials. I casually threw away some of her things that I felt should not be kept and moved things around without her knowledge. Quite a few times she couldn’t find something that she needed.

I was immature at that time and hurt the practitioner in many ways.

I later returned to the practitioner's house to make materials again. I hoped to resolve the conflicts between us. This time, I made sure not to touch her belongings; I came up with simple ways that she could help with the project and I also cooked for her. But no matter what I did, she still bore a grudge against me.

I look within and recalled that there was one occasion when I was at her house and the printer broke down. I decided to take it to the repair center. The practitioner tried to come along and I said, “Why are you coming? That means while I carry the printer, I also have to take care of you. You can't come.”

I was selfish and hurt her with my words. I did not consider that she was trying to help out and play a part in the truth-clarification project.

I said sorry to her in my heart, “I was wrong. I'm sorry that I've hurt you. I'll change.” But things were still tense between us. I continued to look within.

One day, another practitioner told me, “[My host-practitioner] complained that you messed up her computer.”

I felt a bit upset when I heard this. I was using her computer to make truth-clarification materials. Why did she complain about me?

I then recalled Master's Fa,

“As a cultivatorOne always looks for one’s own faults’Tis the Way to get rid of attachments most effectivelyThere’s no way to skip ordeals, big or small[During a conflict, if you can remember:]“He’s right,And I’m wrong,”What’s to dispute?” (“Who's Right, Who's Wrong” in Hong Yin III)

As I recited Master's Fa, I came to see that while my purpose for using her computer was not selfish, I should have respected her as the owner of the machine, and should have checked with her before making any changes.

I told the elderly practitioner, “It was wrong of me to be so casual in my actions. I've hurt you. I didn't put myself in your shoes. I'll change and be more careful from now on.”

Our relationship improved. However, she still seemed to have something against me. I continued to look within.

Once, she told another practitioner that I did not allow her to go out and distribute materials. In actuality, I was reluctant to let her distribute the materials because her house was a major material production site, and I worried about the safety of the site.

Moreover, I felt that because of her age, she could only cover a short distance every day, and the number of sentient beings that she would encounter would be limited.

I suddenly realized that I was using the material site as an excuse to cover up my attachment of fear. I was afraid that she would get in trouble or arrested, and bring danger to me.

I realized that this was the result of not fully trusting in Master and the Fa.

Master said,

“If the matter has absolutely nothing to do with you or doesn’t involve any of the attachments you should break, then that thing would rarely happen to you. If you didn’t have an attachment the problem wouldn’t have come about. I have to be responsible for your cultivation.” (“Teaching the Fa at the Conference in Europe”)

I apologized to the practitioner, explaining, “I was afraid that you would bring danger to me. I was wrong. Saving people is the responsibility and obligation of every Dafa disciple.”

The practitioner smiled. Our conflicts were finally resolved.