(Minghui.org) I realized that a kind of substance was in my dimension that made me deceive myself, and I didn't discipline myself strictly with the requirements of the Fa when doing things. This substance also made me not want to do my exercises either. I didn't find this interference until I recited the Fa for some time.
The time to send righteous thoughts is 12 a.m.—midnight—but I usually felt sleepy around 11:30 p.m. and went to bed. I thought that I would sleep for a while and then send righteous thoughts at midnight, but I missed the time for sending global righteous thoughts many times.
I didn't learn anything from this experience, as I kept doing it. I made excuses for myself and continued to deceive myself with the thought that I would do it the next day.
I also made excuses not to go out and tell people about Falun Gong and the persecution, as I wanted to read the Fa more to improve myself and do a better job when talking to people. This interference overwhelmed me and made me not be diligent.
I realized the seriousness only after reciting the Fa.
Master said:
“In the course of our cultivation practice, you must clean out various bad things in your body so that you can move up. This characteristic of the universe exactly plays this role...You must eliminate all ill thoughts among everyday people—only then can you move up.” (Zhuan Falun)
I wasn't cultivating well and still looked outward. I found attachments in other practitioners and criticized them when they didn't look within. I used my human notions to measure other practitioners.
I must stop deceiving myself, use the Fa to measure myself, and face my own problems. I should check my every single thought and action and compare them to the Fa. I can no longer let any attachment or substance interfere with me. I should cherish this final opportunity to cultivate and save more people.
Category: Improving Oneself
