(Minghui.org) I am a female Falun Dafa practitioner who began practicing in 1995, when I was 23 years old. I was single, and I thought a lot about the issue of marriage.
The cultivation environment was good before the persecution started, and it was not an issue whether you were married or not. When the persecution started, I thought that the Fa-rectification would be over in less than three years, so I did not think about getting married. However, 17 years have passed.
Marriage was not on my mind, as I needed to keep righteous thoughts when I went out to distribute truth clarification materials. My desire gradually waned, and I am no longer disturbed by the thought of not being married.
However, there is often external interference. Ordinary people introduce me to men as prospective boyfriends. Unmarried male practitioners have also wanted to become my boyfriend. All these things made it difficult for me to remain calm. However, I do know from studying the Fa that I have to go through hardship to eliminate interference.
Interference from other dimensions was worse. For example, when I was sleeping, I felt a man lying right next to me. He was someone I had really loved in the past and he said things that I wanted to hear. If I had had human attachments and believed that it was real, I would have been destroyed, because it was actually the demon of lust.
I failed the test at first. I was too frightened to fall asleep. My xinxing level would drop and then come back up after I cultivated some more. I have learned my lesson after going through this many times. I know that it is not real, and I will not listen to it or want it. I asked Master to help me. This is, in fact, persecution from the old forces, utilizing the demon of lust.
This problem started for me after I set up a materials production site, and had less time to study the Fa.
Sometimes the interference was such that I had to send forth righteous thoughts all night. Whenever I lay down, demons of lust from other dimensions would come. I had to keep sending forth righteous thoughts to eliminate the interference.
One day I lay down for a rest and the demon of lust came to interfere with me. When I was sending forth righteous thoughts, I saw Master's fashen standing in the midst of a white mist, wearing a golden kasaya and with blue hair. I called out to Master. Master said nothing but held a picture that showed part of the character for “Happiness” (this character is often used in double form outside the home of newly-wed couples). After a while, Master's fashen disappeared. I came to understand that Master wanted me to eliminate the attachment to marriage.
I can now resist this interference, as I often recite Master's Fa about this issue and feel very calm. I was greatly relieved when I got rid of this attachment. Through Fa study, Master is also taking the feelings away. They are not completely gone, but I can overcome them whenever they appear. If this kind of interference reappears, I am no longer tempted, and I can treat it with righteous thoughts.
Master said,
“For those practitioners who practice cultivation among everyday people, our school of practice does not ask you to become a monk or nun. Young practitioners should still have families. So how should this issue be treated? I have said that our school of practice directly targets one’s mind. It does not make you actually lose anything in terms of material benefits. Instead, you are to temper your xinxing amidst the material benefits of everyday people. What is truly upgraded is your xinxing. If you can give up the attachment, you are able to abandon everything; when you are asked to give up material benefits, you will certainly be able to do it. If you cannot let the attachment go, you will not be able to discard anything. Therefore, the real purpose of cultivation is to cultivate your heart.” (Zhuan Falun)
I have come to understand that the reason for the many years of interference relating to marriage was because I did not study the Fa well and did not have a good understanding of the Fa principles. I was not diligent in following the path that Master arranged for me.
Before the persecution began in 1999, the cultivation environment was good, but I didn't know how to cherish Dafa cultivation. I had too many human attachments. After the persecution started, I realized that the relaxed cultivation environment no longer existed. I knelt down and asked Master to offer me one more cultivation opportunity, because I was worried that I did not have enough time.
I saw in another dimension a silver Buddha standing above my head. Her skin was made of silver and the halo over her head lit her world. It was sacred. Soon the periphery of the world was blocked by a lot of black demons.
This dream greatly encouraged me, and I understood that there would be many demons on my path of cultivation. I decided to cherish the time and cultivate diligently.
Life is short and the cultivation opportunity during the Fa rectification is very precious. We must not miss any moment to do the three things well.