(Minghui.org) I am 55 years old and live in a village in Julin. I began to practice Falun Dafa in August 1998. The practice has had a big impact on me and my family.
I had many problems in my life before I learned Falun Dafa. I was often angry with my mother-in-law. She was mean to me and did not treat her three sons (one of which is my husband) equally. My anger turned into hate, and even the mention of her name made heart beat irregularly. I took out my anger on my husband, blaming him for her unfairness.
I was miserable and had no hope for a better life. I would not work and our family’s finances plummeted.
With no will to live, I took an overdose of sleeping pills to end my life. My son was just six years old. I was found and saved, but felt like I was dead inside. I then began to play mahjong (Chinese gambling) more and more. I became addicted to the game and gambling in general. My husband tried to persuade me to stop, but I would not listen to him.
In the winter of 1996 I started a fire to warm up the house. I then left to go play mahjong. The untended fire burned out of control and burned down our home. Our family was already in debt to the tune of over 10,000 yuan. We now had to borrow money for a small, cold, shabby, straw house to live in.
I was already suffering from many ailments such as heart disease, liver problems, neurosis, and arthritis. So I spent all my time either at the village clinic or the mahjong table. I felt totally defeated and began thinking about ending my life again.
It was at this time that I was introduced to Falun Dafa The main book of Falun Dafa, Zhuan Falun, explains why people have illnesses and the cause and effect relationship between individuals and their behaviors. The fundamental law of the universe, the book explains, is Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance. Knowing this, I became determined to become a Dafa practitioner.
I began to follow the principles of Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance, and my world improved. I also stopped complaining. At first no one believed I could quit my gambling addiction, but I did!
My resentment toward my mother-in-law disappeared. I instead became understanding toward her and even made her a gift. I stopped fighting with my husband, and finally my son had a normal home that could provide him with love and security. Moreover, all my ailments disappeared. I have not taken any medications since the day I started practicing.
I never did any work at home or in the fields, but I found myself doing both while my husband worked in the city. Soon, we had a nice brick house with a neatly maintained courtyard and storehouse. We also purchased three electronic farming machines and vehicles.
Our son is now married and our grandson is already seven years old. Without Dafa, my family and I would not have the life we have today.
Since the persecution of Falun Gong began in 1997, my family members (except my grandson), and I have been detained, sent to brainwashing centers, imprisoned in forced labor camps, and extorted money, simply because we believe in Falun Dafa. The government did not do anything when I was causing so much trouble for my family and society, but now it persecutes me when I am trying to be a better person.
My family is very supportive, and although my husband and son are not practitioners, they have followed Dafa's principles and tried to be people with high moral standards. For example, they once went to the local market to purchase fireworks for the Chinese New Year. They noticed that the fireworks vendor had too many customers and that many people were stealing from him. But my husband and son would not steal and just patiently waited their turn.
They later said to me, “If you did not practice Dafa, we would not have known the cause-and-effect principle of reward and retribution, and we would behave just like everyone else. We now understand why Chinese people's morality has declined so much.”
That made me think that many more people would be practicing Dafa if there was no persecution.The need for the current anti-corruption movement would no longer exist because everyone would be governing their own behavior.
Master Li said:
“You know that laws are becoming more comprehensive and refined. Yet why are there people who still do bad deeds? Why don't they comply with the laws? It is because you cannot govern their hearts. When they are not seen, they will still do bad deeds.” (Zhuan Falun, Lecture Nine)
“If everyone searches internally and considers how to conduct himself or herself well, I would say that society will stabilize and the human moral standard will move up to where it once was.” (Zhuang Falun, Lecture Four)
I would like to tell all those people who still believe the lies of the Chinese Communist Party: Please learn the facts of what Falun Dafa really is. You may indeed discover the teachings are what you have been searching for.