(Minghui.org) I am 40 years old, and it seemed that time had passed in a flash. Looking back, I had not gained anything except a few material things.
I wondered if I would leave anything behind in another forty years. If I had not awakened, nothing would have changed.
I would like to share with you how I awakened from the lies of the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) and became a Falun Dafa (also known as Falun Gong) supporter.
We lived in an old house in a remote village after we married. It is about 20 miles from my workplace. I commuted by bus, leaving for work early and getting home late.
We argued frequently. My husband indulged heavily in drinking, gambling, and playing games. He agreed to kick the bad habits several times, but his promises to quit did not last long. I often regretted that I had married such a person.
A few years later, our baby came and our financial situation improved. We owned a house and car. My satisfaction in having material things made up for my spiritual emptiness and helped me forget my worries and sadness.
My husband's health started to deteriorate as he grew older. He suffered from chronic indigestion and had pain along his spine at his neck, chest, and waist. The pain greatly affected his daily life.
He tried many medical treatments – Chinese medicine, massage, moxibustion therapy, acupuncture, and more. These treatments only provided temporary relief. None really worked.
On the tenth anniversary of our marriage, my husband said to me, “I've worked very hard my whole life. I also suffered a lot of pain. You didn't have to work so hard and your life is much easier than mine. How do you explain this if it has nothing to do with predestined fate? Isn't our marriage also prearranged?”
“I just made a wish,” he said after he lit a candle. “I want to find out the meaning of life.”
I had never thought seriously about fate before. I did not know the reason why I came to this world, because it was not up to me.
I did agree with him: Fate is determined by Heaven.
I saw a copy of Zhuan Falun on my bed one afternoon when I came home after work. I was confused.
I did not know too much about Falun Gong. I'd only seen my parents practicing it when I was young.
After July 20, 1999, slanderous propaganda against Falun Gong was everywhere on television and in newspapers. The propaganda made people feel like they were in danger if they made contact with Falun Gong. I felt scared even if I only saw the words “Falun Gong” at home.
I lost my temper at my husband when he came home. I asked, “What are you practicing this thing for?”
“Why is it wrong to practice Falun Gong?” he countered.
“The [communist] Party has prohibited people from practicing it for many years! You should not do it,” I shouted.
“We have always heard from the Party about how bad Falun Gong is. Now, I want to find out for myself,” my husband said calmly.
I was furious. “How can you live without the CCP? Isn't your wage given to you by the Party?”
We remained at a stalemate for a while.
After practicing Falun Gong for a while, my husband’s ailments disappeared. He regained his health and felt light. He told me that Master Li (the founder of Falun Gong) had purified his body.
He had a happy smile, a smile that only a sickness-free person can have. I smiled, too.
I also witnessed his changes in other ways. He no longer drank, gambled, or played games. He helped with the housework. He tamed his hot temper.
Seeing these miracles and the greatness of Dafa, I could not help but blurt out, “Falun Dafa is good! Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance [Dafa's central principle] is good!”
To help me understand the facts about Falun Gong, my husband showed me various videos such as “False Fire”(http://falsefire.com), “Harvesting organs from living Falun Gong practitioners,” “We told the future,” and others. We also watched other programs that exposed the CCP's propaganda, discussed China's modern history, and dissected the evil nature of the CCP.
From these programs, I learned about the world from a different perspective. I realized that I had been deeply influenced and fooled by the CCP's culture for decades.
I could not imagine how children growing up in this society could have a correct view of history, the human world, and the universe.
I was deceived into believing that I could not live without the CCP, because the Party provided me with a job and wage. In reality, I work to earn my wage.
Under the CCP regime, people's standard of morality has dropped precipitously and corruption is rampant. I realized that people would have better lives without the CCP.
As my thoughts toward the CCP changed, I truly understood how evil the Party is!
Master Li taught us the meaning of “Loss and Gain” in Lecture 4 of Zhuan Falun:
“What everyday people want is personal gain and how to live well and comfortably. Our practitioners are not this way, but exactly the opposite. We do not seek what everyday people want. Instead, what we get is something everyday people cannot obtain—even if they want to—except through cultivation.”
My husband said, “What Master gives us is the most precious thing in the universe. It is a ladder to Heaven. I must cherish this unprecedented opportunity.”
My husband had sought material success when he was young. Once he started practicing Falun Gong, he realized that his pursuit was hollow and that people should live to return to their true selves. He thus chose his path of cultivation.
I finally understand that Falun Gong is good for people and their families, society, and the nation. Practitioners are a group of cultivators who follow the principles of Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance.
The CCP propaganda defames Falun Gong. People should recognize its viciousness and awaken quickly.
I was no longer in doubt. I quickly asked my husband to help me quit the CCP to gain a new life.