(Clearwisdom.net) I feel very fortunate to have had the opportunity to start cultivating Falun Dafa in 1998. I would like to share how I got rid of my notion of fear and started to validate Dafa with dignity while facing tremendous interference from the local authorities.
Right before the 2008 Olympic Games began, state security officers showed up at my door and asked me to go with them to attend to some “business.” My husband, who was home at the time, refused to let them take me away.
I started to expose the officers' plot and refused to cooperate with them. Later on, several other people showed up at my door, including personnel from a government office and the police station. With feigned kindness, they tried to persuade me to give them my Dafa materials, which they intended to confiscate. They said that once I handed the materials over to them, they would leave me alone. I thought to myself, “How can you persecute good people without a reason?!”
I started to feel afraid because there were quite a few Dafa related materials in our home, and if they were discovered, several fellow practitioners might be implicated. I was thinking, “If they find the materials, how will I deal with that?” In addition, a fellow practitioner was scheduled to arrive at our home at any moment.
I also knew that I had Master and Dafa protecting me and that I had nothing to fear. Everything in my life is arranged by Master, and whether I live or die is Master's choice. My husband and I quickly assessed the situation and warned our fellow practitioners, who immediately started to send forth righteous thoughts to help clear away the interference. While sending forth righteous thoughts, I asked Master to strengthen me and my husband.
Once the police and government agents saw that their sweet-talking tactics failed to move us, their attitude completely changed. They immediately started opening up drawers and cabinets throughout the house. After searching our home from top-to-bottom, they started all over again, not missing even one drawer. It seemed like they would never stop looking until they found what they came for.
All during this time, my husband kept telling them the truth about Dafa, saying, “If you do good deeds, you will be rewarded. However, if you choose to do bad deeds, you will have to suffer the consequences. If you insist on following Jiang’s orders, what kind of future do you think awaits you? You should think about that!”
I started to look deep inside myself to see if I had any shortcomings that I wasn't aware of. Then I discovered that I still had a jealous and competitive heart.
Once I identified these attachments, I sent forth the following thought: “Even if I have some shortcomings, they will be corrected by the Fa. I have Master looking after me and no evil is allowed to persecute me. I only acknowledge Master’s arrangements, nobody else's!”
With Master’s Law Bodies protecting me and my husband and our fellow practitioners’ cooperation, those evildoers stopped persecuting us and left our home, feeling very defeated. At that time, it seemed like a very heavy weight had suddenly been lifted off me, and my whole body felt light and airy. It was truly an invisible battle between good and evil.
Recently, when a state social worker called me, I thought to myself, “Why is he bugging me again?” While I was thinking this, my granddaughter said, “Grandma, the water faucet is leaking!” When I heard this, I was shocked. I thought that perhaps it was my mind that was leaking! I turned around to check the sink and found that it was full of water. I quickly deduced that it was time for me to expand my mind!
Then the social worker called me again, saying that I needed to attend a special class in order to have my “state registration number” that had been assigned to me as a practitioner removed from their list. I told him, “You guys have been bugging me for years. I cannot take it anymore, plus I do not have time!” Then I hung up the phone.
The next day, the same social worker came to our home. He tried to convince me to go with him, but I was not moved at all. Instead, my husband and I both clarified the truth to him. We told him that Falun Dafa is practiced overseas and that people in other countries already knew about the persecution perpetrated by the Chinese Communist Party (CCP).
Although he agreed with us on some points, he disagreed with us on other major points, showing his truly warped nature. Finally, he said he needed to go back to talk to his superiors and then left.
Then next day he came back, accompanied by several others. They talked to us the whole morning and insisted that I follow their demands. The social worker said, “You must address these issues!”
I was thinking to myself, “Since I was released from prison several years ago, they've never stopped bothering me.” Periodically, they would stop by for a “visit” and then a “return visit.” Even though I had clarified the truth to the social worker and he had shown some sympathy for our situation, whenever his “higher-ups” wanted something, he still asked me to cooperate with them.
He proposed that we try to find a way to deal with the situation and then everything would be OK. Due to my big attachment of fear, I dared not refuse him directly, as I was afraid that I would be persecuted again.
Although I firmly cultivate Dafa and always do the three things, I didn't dare to cultivate openly and with dignity. Each time I did what they asked me to do, I felt regret. I comforted myself by saying, “If I do what they ask me to do, I still have the opportunity to do the three things well.”
But how could such a notion produce good results? How could I consummate harboring such thoughts? Isn’t this human notion borne of fear?
Teacher says in the article, “Pass the Deadly Test:”
“Fear can cause one to make mistakes, and fear can cause one to lose a predestined opportunity. Fear is a death trap on a human being’s journey toward divinity.”
The next day, a local 610 Office agent came to our home, which really scared me. I adjusted my mindset and decided to talk to him in a dignified manner. I told him about the many miracles that I've witnessed since I started practicing Dafa, including improved health and wellbeing.
I told him, “Dafa teaches people to be good and practicing it can improve one's health. Anyone who wants to learn it is welcome. If they don't want to learn it, they are free to leave. Since Dafa was first introduced in 1992, not a single person has been forced to learn Dafa.
“You guys, on the other hand, force practitioners to go to brainwashing sessions. You force people to say disparaging words against Dafa and Master Li. You force people to do all sorts of unspeakable things against their will. You force countless numbers of people to quit practicing Dafa, which has resulted in many of them becoming ill and even becoming homeless.
“Practitioners aren't bad. It is you guys who are bad! You disturb the entire society, including many practitioner’s families, and have persecuted so many good people. Sooner or later, you guys will be dragged into court and held accountable for your despicable and criminal behavior.”
The 610 Office agent pretended to pay close attention to me, but after I finished talking, he said, “Now everything is different, and I can guarantee you that no one will hurt you. We do what we do, but we don't mean to hurt anybody.”
I replied, “I trusted what you said about the present situation being different from before. But the difference that you were referring to is just different people, times, and methods. Your goal, what you want to achieve, hasn't changed at all!”
He listened and did not dare to utter a word. Finally he said, “I admire you for telling me all this in an open and aboveboard manner. Let’s call it a day. Think about what I said and contact me later.”
I replied, “It is you and your people who need to carefully think things over, not me! I am a Falun Dafa disciple and this title will never be compromised!” Thus, under Master’s compassionate protection, the battle between good and evil ended with the evil being defeated.
It is through this experience that I learned how to clarify the truth with dignity. As a result, my mind and heart have become bigger and my righteous thoughts stronger. I was finally able to tell that cowardly gang of CCP thugs what I've been holding inside for oh so many years!
