(Clearwisdom.net) I am a 15-year-old Dafa disciple. I have cultivated Dafa with my parents for more than ten years. I felt sorry that, even though I have cultivated for a long time, I was not very diligent. Taking the opportunity of the sacred Seventh Internet Experience Sharing Conference for Practitioners in China on the Minghui/Clearwisdom website, I am sharing my cultivation experiences of the past year. Please point out anything improper.
1. Paying Attention to Fa Study
I didn't do well with Fa study. Sometimes I was exhausted after school and struggled with a tremendous amount of homework at home. If it was not for group Fa-study day, I would just study the Fa a little bit just to check it off as done. Sometimes, my attachment to comfort was very strong, and I didn't want to study the Fa though I knew I should. Studying the Fa became a burden. This turned into a bad habit. Because I was not meeting the Fa's standards and my time was not used righteously, the evil made arrangements to make it even harder for me to study the Fa. I would have so much homework that would take me until after the midnight to finish. Even when I did study the Fa, I couldn't concentrate. I was muddle-headed and extremely tired. I also felt very unhappy. Now, thinking back, this series of unrighteous states was the result of my not paying enough attention to Fa study. I thank my mother, who told me to recite at least one paragraph of Zhuan Falun every day. That was the main reason I didn't get too polluted by the human world. In the future, I must pay more attention to Fa study and eliminate the evil taking advantage of my shortcomings.
2. Paying Attention to Sending Forth Righteous Thoughts
In recent experience sharing articles on the Minghui website, fellow practitioners are paying a lot of attention to sending forth righteous thoughts. It is one of the three things that Teacher has asked us to do. It will eliminate the remaining evil that is left in other dimension and also save sentient beings. I didn't do this well before. I hope fellow practitioners will avoid my mistakes.
I didn't pay much attention to it. I had to start school at 6:30 a.m. After sending forth righteous thoughts at 6:00, I had only 15 minutes to wash my face, brush my teeth, and eat breakfast. The time was extremely tight. Sometimes I used the time from 5:55 to 6:00 that was to clean my own field to do my own things. Then, when I put up my hand at 6:00, my thoughts were not focused. Later, my school required us to be at school at 6:00 a.m. I didn't look within or send forth righteous thoughts to eliminate the interference. At first I thought I should reject the arrangement. I sent forth the righteous thoughts at school. But after a while, I became numb and got used to the school schedule. Actually, I was not clear on the Fa. I didn't think it through carefully: Why did the evil want to stop me from sending forth righteous thoughts at 6:00? On the surface, there were some reasons. Teacher said, "You should also be clear that 'natural' does not exist, and there is a reason for 'inevitability.'" ("Expounding on the Fa," Essentials for Further Advancement). Actually the evil was trying to find a place to hide. When other practitioners sent forth righteous thoughts but I didn't, the evil ran to my field to hide. After I didn't send forth righteous thoughts for a while, I had a dream: The evil wanted to arrest fellow practitioners. Holding the door, I cried and shouted, "Teacher, those evil beings were hidden in my field. Please give me another chance!" Then I woke up and felt very sorry. Teacher said, "at the same time, you need to eliminate the external ones, which are directly related to the dimensions you're in. If you don't eliminate them, then they not only persecute you and restrain you, but also persecute other students, other Dafa disciples." ("Fa-Lecture at the Conference in Florida, U.S.A.")
Another thing is the quality of sending forth righteous thoughts. Even though I was sending forth righteous thoughts, sometimes my mind wandered. Actually it was a battle between the righteous and the evil in other dimensions at that time. Just imagine if a general daydreamed on the battlefield. His troops would not only not win, but his opponent's army would be encouraged. I must stay awake and concentrate on sending forth righteous thoughts, to make the best use of righteous thoughts and supernormal abilities.
3. Saving Sentient Beings Benevolently
I spend most of my time at school, so teachers and students are the people that I have contact with the most. Teacher has arranged a good environment for me to save sentient beings there. Because of him, I have good grades and seem trustworthy.
The textbook Moral Qualities and Society for the fifth and sixth graders contains information slandering Dafa. It will lead innocent young lives astray if they believe it. I have a responsibility to save them. Some of them might be a king or lord in the heavens who gave up their glory to follow Teacher down to the human world to save the enormous number of beings in their kingdom and to assist Teacher to rectify the Fa. The hardness of life in the human world causes them to get lost and forget their original mission. How much their knowing side wants a Dafa disciple to save them! I remember that when I was in the third grade, I used the form of a story to persuade all the students in my class to quit the Chinese Communist Party and its affiliated organizations. Then I saw a big evil creature come to our class in a dream. It said, "I have been here for many years. You are rebelling! Not listening to me anymore!" It started fighting with me. Then my father appeared and drove it away.
Shortly after, a classmate said to me, "Are you a god or a human? I had a dream last night and saw that you were a god. You held a sword and were very powerful. You also gave me and another classmate each a sword. We helped you to eliminate monsters." I was moved. I knew it was Teacher that encouraged me. For many reasons, I went to several schools, but I also had many problems. Since I didn't cultivate myself well, I missed opportunities to save many people with predestined relationships. When I left them, they were very sad. I knew it was their knowing side that was sad. Though I was not very diligent and kept making mistakes along my cultivation path, our benevolent Teacher never gave up on me. He used a classmate's mouth to encourage me when I wanted to save more people but had fear in my mind.
Once, a classmate told me, "You know, when I am with you, I feel very good and happy. I feel very proud to be with you!" Another time, the teacher asked us to talk about what we wanted to be when we grew up. I asked a classmate sitting next to me, "Do you know what I want to do?" She said, "I know. Your dream is absolutely not about going to college. Your dream is to help each of us be good and have good fortune." I then said to myself, "I must be more diligent and work hard. I need to spend more time on cultivation. I have a great mission, because my home is in the remote universe. My many sentient beings are waiting for me. They wish their lord to be diligent in the human world. I should not disappoint them. I should be worthy of Teacher's salvation. I must be diligent. I must go home and let all sentient beings be saved!"
Lastly, I wish that all Dafa disciples would be diligent. We have gone through rounds and rounds of reincarnation and suffered countless pain. All of that is just for today - to be able to assist Teacher to rectify the Fa and to save sentient beings. Let's not miss the unprecedented opportunity. Let's do it well from this moment on! Fellow practitioners, let's be diligent together!