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Greetings to Master and fellow practitioners!
In spite of Master's repeated direction regarding the three important things that practitioners should do - to study the Fa, to send forth righteous thoughts and to clarify the truth to the public, I was still taking things easy by just doing the exercises and studying the Fa daily. I had thought that I was doing okay in cultivation, but I encountered lots of karmic disturbances and other interference from the old forces. Despite all these things, I still thought that I was doing fine in cultivation -- but I was wrong.
It was only at a later point that I changed my thinking concerning the direction I was going on my cultivation path. My wake-up call came after seeing reports from the Minghui website and others that vividly exposed the persecution of Falun Gong in China and the terrible facts pertaining to the recent organ harvesting news. The bloody pictures of the live organ harvesting demonstrations overseas made me change my thinking. All these things touched my heart, and I began to really take notice of the injustice Dafa is facing in China. I made up my mind to do something for Dafa by standing up to say some just words for Dafa when people say bad things about Dafa.
As Master has said, "As a Dafa disciple, a particle of this Great Fa of the cosmos, ..." ("Teaching the Fa at the Western U.S. Fa Conference", Guiding the Voyage) how can we just sit and cultivate ourselves when Dafa is facing injustice and when fellow practitioners are suffering from being tortured to death and even from live organ harvesting. If I don't stand up to defend our Dafa from injustice, then I am not fit to be a Dafa practitioner. I am fundamentally and most of all a particle of Dafa. Hence, I must stand up for Dafa. After all, I am very sure that all of us know that Master has done so much for us, so as to enable us to have a cultivation path. We must be worthy of Master's wish for us. We often make mistakes again and again and still think that we are right, and refuse to give up our mistakes and thoughts, even though fellow practitioners have pointed them out to us.
With the help of some practitioners, I started going door to door to clarify the truth about Dafa. I help the public know what Falun Dafa is about, why China's regime persecutes Falun Gong practitioners, and the live organ harvesting happening in China, which has led to the murder of our fellow practitioners day in and day out.
Before I go out to clarify the truth, I often encounter interference at home and on my way to the destination. At home, I will have lots of housework that keeps coming up for me to complete, phone calls from friends, and clashes between me and my daughter due to my poor xinxing cultivation. My tolerance is also not that good yet, and it is due to one reason or another that I created unnecessary difficulties for myself. Hence, I am always rushing to get started on time for clarifying the truth door to door. I am frequently feeling very stressed when it is time for clarifying the truth door to door, but by the time I finish for that day, I feel good because even though I have done very little, I have done my best.
During my door to door truth clarification, I have to admit that I feel frightened and timid the first couple of doors I knock on each day. I find myself struggling to figure out how and where to begin, whether I should hold the truth-clarification folder out first or the brochure first, or if I should just start talking. Sometimes, I feel the urge to run away when the door is opening. But, I always remind myself that I have to do it and overcome the barriers. If people start scolding me or slam their doors, I feel a sense of despair. Usually, I can feel that Master is helping me to gain my confidence when I am feeling that waySometimes the conversation with one person can take more than half an hour because the person wants to know more and is even willing to help in some way. I feel quite good after such conversations and feel proud to be a Dafa practitioner.
I find that door to door truth clarification is also a form of cultivation. We are truthful in all that we say; we are compassionate by patiently explaining even when we are met with verbal abuse; we are forbearing by enduring the hardships that go along with doing this kind of truth-clarification.
I still feel that I have lots of room for improvement on my cultivation path. Please pardon me for my shallow knowledge in my cultivation. Thank you.
(Presented at the 2006 Singapore Fa Conference)
