(Clearwisdom.net) Two days before I completed my illegal three-year sentence at a labor camp, I was suddenly transferred to an out-of-town brainwashing center on April 29, 2007. Those involved in this transfer included my local police station, the 610 Office and the Political and Judiciary Committee.
The guards at the forced labor camp deceived me into going downstairs. I saw a van surrounded by many people, including guards, the warden and many others I didn't know. One of them asked me for my home address. After I answered the question, they told me that they were from the police precinct in my area and told me to get into the van. Teacher said,
"No matter what the situation, do not cooperate with the evil's demands, orders, or what it instigates." ("Dafa Disciples' Righteous Thoughts are Powerful" in Essentials for Further Advancement II)
I refused to cooperate. I asked them to show their identification, but no one did.
Because I refused to get in the van, the warden demanded that they drag me into the van. While I held them off, I shouted loudly, "Falun Gong is good!" Once in the van, I was flanked by two men, who pinned down my arms and shouted at me, telling me to cooperate with them. I asked them where they were taking me. A policeman replied, "We are moving you to another place. It is a three-star hotel where you will be 'transformed.'" I stood up in the van upon hearing his reply. I told him, "You are trying to brainwash me? No way. Instead, I will convince you to withdraw from the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) and its two affiliated leagues!" He slapped me in the face upon hearing this. I tried to grab his hand, and he withdrew. Then the other man started to point at me. I told him solemnly to stop it, and he did so immediately. I knew it was the power of my righteous thoughts.
Teacher said,
"Indestructible righteous faith in the cosmos's Truth forms benevolent Dafa disciples' rock-solid, Diamond-Like Bodies, it frightens all evil, and the light of Truth it emanates makes the unrighteous elements in all beings' thoughts disintegrate." ("Also in a Few Words" in Essentials for Further Advancement II)
On the way to the brainwashing center, I kept sending forth righteous thoughts to eliminate all the evil beings and elements manipulating the policemen from other dimensions and to completely deny all the old forces' arrangements. Meanwhile, I clarified the truth to the policemen, telling them about the CCP's persecution. When we were about to reach the brainwashing center, we had a flat tire. I knew it was the result of my righteous thoughts. I told them that it was a warning for them to stop committing crimes against practitioners, but they refused to listen. I got out of the car while they were busy changing the tire. Two men near me pinned my arms behind my back and held me to the ground. Then, the men who changed the tire came to help them. I struggled with them for a while before a policewoman called them off. I asked those policemen that had beaten me to give me their names, but none of them dared to tell me. Then I was taken to the brainwashing center.
Once at the brainwashing center, I had difficulty walking because I had been severely tortured at the forced labor camp. A woman at the brainwashing center said, "Look at her condition. We cannot take her." Two men held my arms to force me into a room and threw me onto a bed. Staff members at the brainwashing center measured my blood pressure and asked about my health. I told them about the torture that I had suffered at the forced labor camp, and I also told them that I was on a hunger strike as a non-violent means to protest the illegal imprisonment and torture. I advised them not to take me into the brainwashing center because they would have to bear the consequences of persecuting me, but they told me that it was normal for a practitioner to be transferred to a brainwashing center if she refuses to give up practicing Falun Gong. I started to send forth righteous thoughts to stop them from taking me. It didn't work, perhaps because my righteous thoughts were not strong enough or because of my attachments. I remembered something Teacher said,
"[...] her pursuit of getting out was really an attachment that she wasn't able to let go." ("Master's Fa Taught in the International Teleconference")
I kept sending forth righteous thoughts while adjusting my thoughts and searching for my attachments. I slowly calmed down and began to expose the CCP's wicked deeds against the Chinese people. I tried to persuade them to withdraw from the CCP and its two affiliated leagues. I also told them how the forced labor camp has been torturing me and other unlawfully imprisoned practitioners for the past three years.
I knew that this brainwashing center was a wicked place. The horrible means with which they had tortured practitioners have been repeatedly exposed at the Minghui/Clearwisdom website, so I was surprised when the staff there claimed that they would not use violence against me. I did not believe them and knew that Teacher does not want us to accept any favors from the old forces. I held fast to the one thought, "Completely deny the old forces' arrangements and uphold my righteous thoughts."
Teacher said,
"Validate the Fa with rationality, clarify the truth with wisdom, spread the Fa and save people with mercy" ("Rationality" in Essentials for Further Advancement II)
Then a female practitioner appeared. She had been forced to renounce Falun Gong because she could not take the torture. She told me what the environment is like at the brainwashing center and added that she had renounced Falun Gong against her will because she was afraid to be sent to the brainwashing center. But she suddenly declared, "You, too, will fall here like me." Perhaps what she said was a test for my attachment to fear. I began to panic a little. I wondered, based on human notions, "Why have the majority of practitioners taken here renounced Falun Gong? Are there any wicked means of torture that I don't know about?" When such thoughts emerged, I immediately sent forth righteous thoughts to help me rectify each and every thought of mine. As I continued to do so, my righteous thoughts became stronger. I recited Teacher's answer to a practitioner's question that "the evil beings don't allow the students in Mainland China who have been sentenced or kept in labor camps to study the Fa or do the exercises" in "Teaching and Explaining the Fa at the Metropolitan New York Fa Conference" on April 20, 2003. I was able to withstand all sorts of torture at the forced labor camp, but I failed to exhibit righteous thoughts or actions when I faced smaller challenges. I had always felt that I was far from what the Fa expects of me. But now that I was facing the threat of being imprisoned in the brainwashing center, I must walk my path righteously.
In the forced labor camp and other wicked environments, I had gone on many hunger strikes to protest the persecution. Because I did it for different reasons, each hunger strike achieved a different result. This time I knew they would have to release me whether or not I went on a hunger strike. But I remembered that Teacher has said,
"If during this persecution Dafa disciples had all been beaten into silence and had feebly vanished, then would the evil be afraid?" ("Teaching the Fa at the 2004 International Fa Conference in New York")
I decided that I must not give in to the guards and comply with them. I didn't go on hunger strike to be released, but for the sake of protesting the persecution. Most people wanted me to stop my hunger strike and I would explain to them why I must continue.
Neither my family or fellow practitioners knew that I was suddenly transferred out of the forced labor camp. On the second day at the brainwashing center, I made a guard notify my family by phone when she was pretending to be kind towards me. My family overcame many obstacles and finally managed to see me on May 5, 2007. They told me that fellow practitioners around the world have been paying attention to my situation and encouraged me to persevere because they were trying to rescue me. It was a great mental boost. I was in tears to know that fellow practitioners have given so much to rescue me. I became all the more determined to be part of the one body of practitioners.
At the brainwashing center, I often took opportune moments to communicate with fellow practitioners. Some of them may have compromised their belief in Falun Gong, but I encouraged them to return to Falun Gong and not to miss the precious opportunity to practice Falun Gong. Some of them encouraged me to persevere. As for those former practitioners that went down an evil path and are even persecuting fellow practitioners to make them renounce Falun Gong, I pointed out their attachments with compassion and solemnly cautioned them not to twist Teacher's Fa. I told them that they still have a chance to change and make up for their mistake. I also advised them not to assist the wicked CCP in their persecution of practitioners. The guards and former practitioners-turned-torturers became very afraid when they saw me clarifying the truth wherever I went, but they dared not to touch me. In fact they tried to avoid me.
One day fellow practitioners and guards were singing together, but they were singing songs with lyrics praising the CCP or containing the CCP's ideology and culture. I began to send forth righteous thoughts and a fellow practitioner started to sing a song written by a practitioner. I walked to the corridor and gave her a warm round of applause. When she asked if anyone knew how to sing "Be Saved," those former practitioners were terrified and stopped her from singing. I said I knew how to sing "Coming for You" and started singing the song right away. Those guards scattered in fear.
On May 1, 2007, I was taken to a hospital for a physical examination and diagnosed with many "illnesses" that would require my release. I didn't want to miss any opportunity to save sentient beings, so I clarified the truth to the doctors and patients I met there. I also advised them to withdraw from the CCP and its two affiliated organizations. Teacher said,
"People with predestined relationships and those who can be saved can be made to--made to by Master's Law Bodies, righteous gods, or the immense field that Dafa has formed in the world--appear right before you in any of a range of settings, providing them with a chance to learn the truth. But you have to carry it out, and it doesn't work if you're not out there doing things." ("Teaching the Fa at the Fa Conference at the U.S. Capital")
I felt strongly that I must not neglect my mission to save sentient beings. They tried to stop me from talking, but they were stopped by my powerful righteous thoughts. One day when they were trying to force-feed me, one of them tried to stop me from talking. I told him solemnly, "If you should stop me from talking, then I will yell instead." He was scared and told me, "You may talk as much as you like. We will leave you alone."
They started to force-feed me for the first time on May 3, 2007. Each time I was taken to the hospital, I clarified the truth to everyone I met and they no longer tried to stop me. Later when they took me out for forced-feeding, they would ask the doctor or the taxi driver before I even opened my mouth. "Are you a member of the CCP or its two affiliated organizations? If so, this practitioner will ask you to withdraw from them." Then I would pick up the conversation.
During those days at the brainwashing center, the guards had many meetings to discuss how they should deal with me. After May 8, they notified the police station in my neighborhood, the local 610 Office and my family to pick me up. My family and the police arrived at the brainwashing center at around 9:30 p.m. When my family saw me, they questioned the guards, "Has anyone beaten her?" I pointed at the two men who transferred me to the center and said, "These two did." But they dared not admit it. Then guards from the brainwashing center asked my family to sign my release form. I told my family not to sign anything. They threatened to keep me there if my family should refuse to sign. My family told them, "You sent her here secretly without notifying us. Why didn't you ask us to sign when you brought her here? Now you are asking us to sign on the release form. We won't do it!" I told the brainwashing center, "You must not give my family a hard time. You should go ask the police to sign on the release form." Finally the police signed the release form.
When the police saw my condition, they called a taxi and told us to take the taxi home. But my family member told them, "Look at her condition! We will not take her home ourselves! You must take her home in your police car. Look at her! If you don't bring her home today, I will file a complaint against you to the provincial level of the Public Security Bureau tomorrow! Justice has to be served!"
The police looked as though they knew they were in the wrong, but they repeatedly refused to take me home. My family and the police were at a standstill. Meanwhile, my family notified fellow practitioners to send forth righteous thoughts. Then the situation began to change. The head of the brainwashing center told the police to take me home.
Next, the police had a discussion and asked the provincial PSB what to do. I sat in a car quietly, sending forth righteous thoughts. Fellow practitioners in the brainwashing center were also sending forth righteous thoughts. Finally, the police gave in at around 2:30 a.m., May 9. During the process, I hesitated a little. All I wanted was to get home. But when I deliberated on the Fa, I decided I wasn't trying to win a fight. This was a battle between the righteous and the evil, and I must not give an inch.
Finally, they agreed to pay for two cars to come take me home, and two supervisors from the brainwashing center would see to it that I got home safely. Thus I arrived home safely at 7:30 a.m., May 9, 2007.