(Clearwisdom.net) I started to practice Falun Gong in 1996. As an elderly person, I want to share some serious events that have occurred during my cultivation. In the summer of 2004 I all of a sudden couldn't speak clearly, but my thoughts were clear. I lost control of my right arm and it started swinging all around. Soon, I lost the ability to talk.
My elder daughter stepped into the house and saw what was happening. She began to send forth righteous thoughts, asking for Teacher's help. Right away my arm did not swing so wildly. I still couldn't talk. My elder daughter called my son, my daughter-in-law, and my youngest daughter for help. They are also practitioners. They all started sending forth righteous thoughts upon arriving at my home. About a half hour later, my right arm stopped swinging and my head became clearer. I still wasn't able to speak.
I had stopped cultivating for about three years. I was worried about my old age, about health problems I might have, and that my righteous thoughts were insufficient. Right after I returned to cultivating Dafa, this problem came up. I was aware that my study of the Fa wasn't really thorough enough, nor had I let go of my attachments to fear, ease, and comfort. Mostly I worried that Teacher wouldn't want such a poor student as I was.
Influenced by my human notions, I had an ambulance take me to a hospital near my home for medical tests. I had a CAT scan, x-rays, and blood and urine tests. They thought it might be a blood clot. They inserted a needle in my arm connected to an IV bottle. Twenty minutes later they found a lot of fluid under the bed. My sleeve was also wet and the IV bottle was on the floor. The infusion didn't take place at all. It was just like Teacher talked about in Zhuan Falun, but I didn't comprehend it at all! I called the nurse to reconnect the bottle.
After the infusion was done, I was again x-rayed. I found it miraculous that I could stand up straight without help. Normally I could not stand up on my own. I stood through the whole process of x-rays and a CAT scan. The doctors only found common conditions of elderly people.
I later realized these were all hints that Teacher was giving me, but I didn't figure it out at the time. I waited for the test results, so that I could feel relieved. As a matter of fact, I should have realized that it didn't really signal any real sickness. I felt truly relieved knowing that Teacher still considered me his student.
The nurse came in to tell me to come back the following day for another infusion. My daughters asked me to really think about it and try to understand. Did I really have an illness? How should I deal with this problem? Should I still return to the hospital? The whole thing became more and more obvious. It wasn't sickness. Teacher still took me as his student. How could I not comprehend it after spending a few hours in the hospital? I understood that Teacher had given me so many hints for my improvement. When my son asked me again, I firmly said, "No, I don't want to come back."
As I walked out of the hospital, I saw Teacher sitting on a green lawn in the distance. He was dressed in yellow and smiling at me. The scene disappeared in a few seconds. I was so filled with joy. I knew that Teacher was always by my side, protecting me. Now my cultivation is strong and confident. I felt shame for not understanding and being diligent in the past.
Since then, I've been reading two chapters of Zhuan Falun and doing the five exercises everyday. I send forth righteous thoughts every hour. My eyesight is getting better and better. I wasn't able to read small letters before, but now the letters are becoming bigger and clearer when I read "Minghui Weekly."
As far as my cultivation goes, I still have lots of room for improvement. Many human notions still need to be let go of-- I especially dislike hearing complaints about myself. Most of the time, I have concealed my shortcomings and nitpicked on somebody else. My exercise movements aren't always accurate and I sometimes doze off. My right hand used to not be straight while sending forth righteous thought.
Awhile back, I felt I was shorted on my wages. I could not let go of my attachment to personal gain. I failed the test. My sight got blurry, and out of the blue, I could only listen to Teacher's Fa on my MP3 player. My attachment to personal gain showed up again concerning the MP3 player. I bought a more expensive one that was more difficult to operate. I was unwilling to exchange it with my daughter, because I paid for it. I didn't realize what was wrong with me. In fact, it was very dangerous, because the evil was taking advantage of my attachment to get what they wanted. I was not able to listen to the Fa.
I would not be a dedicated practitioner if I was not studying the Fa. I would be without righteous thoughts to deal with interference. What else could be more dangerous than the situation I was in?
After I understood all these problems, the wage problem was solved. In fact, my wages were paid correctly and there was no error. My eyesight has gotten better gradually. I read almost one chapter of Zhuan Falun a day. I still have a little difficulty reading, but I'm sure it'll get better soon.
As I was writing this article, I encountered all kinds of interference. My children finished it by writing down what I said..
I hope other elderly practitioners will not be attached to comfort, ease, and laziness. On the issue of "sickness karma," we must have righteous thoughts all the time, believe in Teacher, trust the Fa, and remember that Teacher is always by our side. We must treasure this great opportunity and walk diligently and bravely on the path of Falun Dafa cultivation. Let us meet Teacher's expectations!
