The Recovery of My Original Nature

(Clearwisdom.net) I am Sun Changdong and live in Qinhuangdao City, Hebei Province. In 1994, I developed a strange illness and often felt dizzy. I went to many hospitals for treatment, but all in vain. I had spent all of my savings, but my health condition was getting worse and worse. When I was speaking or walking I would suddenly faint. I also developed numbness in half of my body. After finishing the electroencephalogram exam, the doctor said, "Your brain shows abnormal changes, and it is incurable."

Due to my severe illness, my wife was unable to take care of our four-year-old daughter by herself. Therefore, we had to take our daughter to my sister's home that was located in Inner Mongolia. In 1998, I left the hospital and went home, awaiting the moment of my death. By February, I was already paralyzed and had been unable to eat and drink for over one month. (Each day, I was only able to drink a small spoon of water.) One day a neighbor came to visit me and said to my wife, "Some people in our village are practicing Falun Gong and watching the video lectures at home. You should ask Changdong to go and listen." My wife thought that I was unable to move so she decided to go and watch it first.

In the evening my wife went to a neighbor's home. Upon listening to the three words of "Truthfulness-Compassion-Tolerance" she run back home at once. As soon as she entered the door, she shouted, "Changdong, I think 'Truthfulness-Compassion-Tolerance' is good." She then helped me to get up. A miracle appeared and I was able to sit. My wife helped me put on my clothes and supported me with her body to go to watch Master's lecture video. That evening after I came back, I was able to sleep for two hours. The next day I was able to sleep half a night, and the third day I had a good night's sleep. The fourth day a person asked me to go out to work with him putting stones on a slope near a street. I went with him. In this way, I regained my health within four days and was able to do this hard work. All the people in our village were shocked by my miraculous recovery. Therefore, many people began to practice Falun Gong.

Because I was illiterate, my wife read the Fa to me every day. Through studying the Fa, I understood that the so-called immortals that I previously worshiped were all low spirits and something harmful. Therefore, I threw away all of these filthy things. Unconsciously, I stopped smoking, and understood that as a practitioner one should not fight back when being punched or insulted. One day my wife was suddenly angry with me and incessantly cursed at me. However, she had never insulted others before. I regarded myself as a genuine cultivator and remained calm. To my surprise, she became much angrier than before and cried and cursed loudly. She cried for half a night until her face was swollen. The next morning, she took a taxi to my brother's home and told them she wanted a divorce. I was strict with myself according to the standard of Dafa, maintained my xinxing and remained calm. Finally she let it go.

Her intention of reading the Fa to me was to cure my illness, but she did not intend to cultivate. One day when she read the Fa to me she began to have a headache, so she no longer read for me. At the time, more people in our village had begun to cultivate Dafa and there was no place available for Fa-study. Therefore, I asked them to come to my home to study the Fa. In this way, I could also follow them and listen to the Fa. My wife's health condition then worsened, and even when she walked she had to use her hands to support her lower abdomen. (First her left side and later her right side). She was in extreme pain. She took some medicine, but in vain. With our persuasion, she genuinely started practicing Falun Gong. As a result, her illnesses disappeared. We brought our daughter back home and our entire family that had been broken apart for several years reunited. My 8-year-old daughter was touched by the miracles of Dafa and also began to cultivate in Dafa. It was just like the saying in Buddhism: "The Buddha-light illuminates everywhere and rectifies all abnormalities."

After our whole family was very diligent and focused on studying and cultivation, the cruel persecution happened. On July 18, 1999 a big bus full of perpetrators came to my home. The perpetrators included officers from the police department, township government officials, people from the propaganda department, village government, village committee and reporters. They tried to force me to cooperate with them to produce fake propaganda, and to give up practicing Falun Gong and give our Dafa books to them. I refused all of their orders. Finally, the village Party secretary wanted to drive me off with the excuse that I was not a local person. I began to get flustered and became afraid that I would lose my residence and have no place to live. I cared about the loss of my personal gains, so I promised them verbally, against my will, to give up my belief. They coerced me into collecting the Dafa books of local practitioners in my village. I complied with them and committed a blunder. I feel very regretful toward our benevolent Master and Dafa.

My wife did not give up her belief. She went to Beijing many times to appeal for Dafa and to tell the facts about Falun Gong. As a result, she was held in a detention center and forced labor camp many times. The officers from the police station and her workplace often came to my home and even to my child's school to harass us. (At the time my child was only ten years old.) Although I had already given up the practice, the evildoers did not let me off. They took advantage of my loopholes and coerced me to assist them in "transforming" my wife. Deep in my heart, I understood that Falun Dafa is good, but my human side was manipulated by them. In order to make our family stable, I began to use various ways to deal with my wife. I forbade her to study the Fa and do the exercises. In addition, I beat and abused her. One time, I clutched her neck so hard that she nearly died of suffocation. She did not fight back when being punched or insulted, and steadfastly cultivated Dafa. Her rock-solid belief in Master has never changed. Furthermore, she did not hate me and compassionately persuaded me and told me the truth.

I was so touched by Dafa's mighty virtue, that my original nature began to emerge again. I understand that the evil forces are persecuting Dafa disciples because they want to destroy Dafa disciples and the world's people. I will expose the evil and tell the truth to the world's people, and tell of the miracles that happened to me, thereby validating Dafa. I hope I can awaken the world's people who are still deceived by the Communist Party's lies and help practitioners like myself who went astray to awaken to their original natures. At the same time, we should rectify ourselves and make up for the losses we caused Dafa.