(Clearwisdom.net) I want to write about my experiences over the past few years in the hopes that practitioners who have experienced similar tribulations can use it as a reference, and not make the same mistakes I did. Let us walk a righteous cultivation path, so that we can live up to Teacher's benevolent salvation.
I am in my 50s. I have been weak and sickly ever since I was a child. I used to visit the hospital frequently. I contracted psoriasis in my 20s. This condition is nicknamed "secondary cancer" because it is so difficult to treat. Medical treatment only alleviates the condition, and it comes back as soon as the medication is stopped. Each relapse is more severe than the previous one. In my 40s, my place of employment went bankrupt and I lost my source of income. There was no way I could afford further medical treatment. I was anxious and exhausted, and the condition worsened drastically. It spread all over my body and was extremely itchy. My scratching left scars and blood everywhere and I could not take care of myself.
Before the persecution of Falun Gong started in 1999, someone told me, "Falun Gong can make you healthy," so I started reading Zhuan Falun. Due to the severity of my illness, I had a strong desire to be cured. Teacher said in Zhuan Falun,
"There's one thing we stress: if you can't set aside those thoughts of yours, if you can't set aside that health problem, then there's nothing we can do and we can't help you."
Despite Master's clear teaching in this respect, I looked at my open sores all the time and hoped my condition would improve. Although it seemed like I was reading Dafa books, I was in fact really attached to getting cured. My condition worsened and I was hospitalized. I gave up Dafa and underwent my third surgery in eight years to remove a tumor on my thyroid gland. My condition deteriorated and my family was facing a desperate situation.
In the early part of January 2003 [Chinese lunar calendar], I caught a cold and had a high fever. More than ten days of IV infusions didn't help me. My temperature shot up to 103 degrees Fahrenheit and my whole body swelled up. I thought a lot during this period. As my life was approaching the end and nothing in the ordinary world could help me, I again chose to practice Falun Dafa. Because my face and hands were swollen, I could not read, so I listened to Teacher's Fa lecture in Guangzhou instead.
After listening for nearly four hours I got out of bed and walked around. I suddenly felt much lighter and my temperature went down. I slept well that night. The next morning my temperature was normal again and the swelling was gone. Surprisingly, the psoriasis improved. Many of the red patches went away and lots of skin was shed. My eyes welled up and I could not contain my gratitude. Teacher again gave me life and the opportunity to practice Dafa. I cannot express my gratitude in words.
I nearly gave up Dafa because of being attached to illness. I would have lost the precious opportunity. I have been studying the Fa for three years now, and I have not taken a single pill or received any injections during this time. I can deal with any physical condition with the mentality of a cultivator. Two years ago I experienced the severe symptoms of a ruptured disk, but within one month I was able to walk freely.
I write this down because I hope it will serve as a reference for fellow practitioners who experience similar tribulations. I do not want anyone to make the same mistake. Let us walk a righteous cultivation path so that we can live up to Teacher's benevolent salvation.