During 1999, when the evil was raging across the country, I stood my ground and still persisted in Fa studies and practice. Not caring much about the vicious set-ups, which I even mistook for tribulations practitioners should endure, I had no idea of what a Dafa practitioner should do in Fa-rectification. Later, I lost contact with fellow practitioners due to a job change. During that period, although I persevered in Fa study and practice, I couldn't stop the erosion of my Xinxing by human attachments and was languishing severely.
In October 2000, I managed to find on the Internet Master's recent lectures on Clearwisdom Net. I was considerably stirred--both by the arrogance and atrocity of the wicked and by the nobleness of my fellow practitioners. Time and again, I cried until my throat was sore and my face was covered with tears. Day and night, I read Master's lectures and fellow practitioners' clarification articles. My true nature was awakened eventually, and I embarked on the path of Fa-rectification.
In the beginning, I sent truth-clarification literature to others through the mail. Later, I started to systematically gather articles from Clearwisdom, print them out, and distribute them in residential neighborhoods, schools, stores, bus stations, public parks, telephone booths--any place I could locate. During the day, I even delivered Dafa materials to passersby, and in public parks, I distributed them to senior citizens in their leisure time. Every time before I set out, I never forgot to recite in my mind "Mighty Virtue" from Hong Yin:
Dafa never leaves the body,
Heart contains Zhen-Shan-Ren;
A great Arhat in the world,
Spirits and ghosts fear the most.
I imagined myself to be a great Arhat in the human world that spirits and ghosts fear the most, and never met any trouble during those trips.
Then, the self-immolations orchestrated by Jiang and his gang took place. I responded by shifting the focus to exposing the truth about the self-immolations. My wife became the first beneficiary of my truth-telling efforts. She in turn passed on the truth about the self-immolations to her friends. I went out to distribute truth-clarifying literature every week, placing them in almost every residential area of the town. I was very serious about the preparation of the literature, which had a good assortment of the truth about the self-immolations, Hong Fa activities outside of China, atrocities by Jiang and his gang, commentaries by outsiders, etc., and if possible, I would include photos along with the text. They were prepared in such a way that readers would be moved from the first moment they read them. Each time, I sent forth righteous thoughts to clean up the places I had been, and to protect the neighborhoods I had visited. I also left my energy potency there lest the evil would create more interference. (Of course, many things were done by Master's law bodies and those gods who were guardians of the Fa, but our righteous thoughts are extremely important too.)
I once saw a poster slandering Dafa in a busy shopping district. Under the gaze of many people, I tore it off, threw it into a trashcan, and later replaced it with a larger color poster complimentary to Dafa. On a separate occasion, I saw many pictures smearing Dafa at the entrance to a kindergarten. I tore them off and put color pictures of Dafa in those places and in nearby places.
The display windows of the library and Worker's Union were saturated with pictures slandering Dafa. Time and again, I kept sending forth righteous thoughts to eliminate the evil behind them, and to replace them. Needless to say, they were gone thereafter. I pledged that I would not tolerate the existence of any evil against Dafa in any places accessible to me.
In the following months, I distributed clarification literature into every section of the city, including residential committees, public security sub-stations, and the suggestion box of the city government. Whenever I placed Dafa materials underneath the door, I could not help thinking, "Here comes a Dafa practitioner to save you. Wake up, people of the world!" On the way to distributing the materials, I once felt tears welling up in my eyes and started crying continuously. I was shedding tears for the compassionate benevolence of Master, for the grand nobleness of Dafa disciples, and for the sentient beings to be saved.
Since I started to cultivate five years ago, my celestial eye has seen nothing, but my righteous belief in Dafa has made me more and more clear-minded, more and more resolute. My response to the wanton persecution against Dafa by the evil has been an unwavering resolve to continually step forward for Dafa. On the other hand, these initiatives of my own to tell the truth have helped me develop a deeper understanding about the Fa and have strengthened the righteous thoughts in my mind. I was completely alone in carrying out all this work, which included preparing the materials, printing, folding, distributing them, etc. Although I had no company as I walked the streets with Dafa materials, I was aware of the magnificence and the boundless power I possessed while standing between heaven and earth, and I felt I could hold up the sky with one arm.
I recall that it once began drizzling when I was planning a trip to distribute the materials. I sent forth the righteous thought, "I will distribute the materials; the rain shouldn't interrupt." As it turned out, not only did the rain never come but also the sun broke out as I finished distributing the literature. One night as I was setting out to post clarification materials, my wife cautioned, "Beware, it has been pretty tight lately." I replied, "I dare them to touch me. They are all afraid of me. I will be back home in one hour." And that trip took exactly one hour. It was also on that trip that I taped Dafa materials to the suggestion box of the city government.
After Clearwisdom posted articles about sending forth righteous thoughts, I realized that I must get more people to know about this. I made dozens of posters about disciples' sending forth righteous thoughts outside of China, and placed them in every section of the city, including some busy shopping districts. Once, I saw a police vehicle parked two to three meters from the place where I had just put up materials, and there were several policemen nearby. I wanted to overwhelm them, so I turned around and put up another one.
I am knowledgeable about computers, but not an expert. Every time I accessed Clearwisdom, I encountered all varieties of interference. In those cases, I used righteous thoughts continuously to eliminate the evil: "the Internet must be through; the Internet must be secure." In this manner, I have managed to successfully finish all the printing assignments. It went so well that once, when I forgot to configure the (Chinese) system in the correct way--which normally would have printed gibberish--I still got dozens of pages of well-formatted Chinese materials.
Since our sending forth of righteous thoughts, the evil has run ever more rampant. I thus made a point of sending forth righteous thoughts to eliminate the evil every second of the day, so much so that sometimes Master's verses would remind me of doing that. The evil also created all kinds of thoughts to interfere with me, and set many stumbling blocks to keep me from preparing Dafa materials and sending emails. Every time, I recited Master's Fa-rectification verses and sent righteous thoughts: "Let the world's people wake up; let the world's people be saved." And I never failed in my tasks. In my sending forth the righteous thoughts, telling the truth and studying the Fa, time raced by. I cannot remember the number of Emails I have sent, nor have I counted the copies of materials I have distributed. Some classmates with whom I had lost contact for many years suddenly showed up, and I knew Master had arranged for them to be saved.
In Mainland China, security is a big concern for every disciple. This misgiving also prevents some practitioners from stepping forward. Many disciples were led away by vicious people when distributing materials. In contrast, I distributed Dafa materials to every corner of two cities and sent emails that covered numerous townships. I even delivered Dafa materials into the hands of pedestrians. These activities, however, didn't result in any security problems for me. Initially, I was quite perplexed, "What is going on? Is the evil force pretty weak here?" No, this was not true, as more than two hundred disciples were sentenced in that area. Later, I really awakened to it: it was because all along I saw myself as a truly great god, as someone who was saving the world's people. Since I was doing the most righteous things, the divine side would take effect, and the evil would be eliminated or scared off in the face of the mighty compassion of a god. Actually, Master exhorted us a long time ago that the only way to be spared from the evil's interference during this great tribulation is to "Follow Teacher closely, steadfastly cultivating Dafa." (from The Knowing Heart) I read very carefully and put into action immediately every article by Master--isn't this "Follow Teacher closely, steadfastly cultivating Dafa?" In distributing materials, I could feel that the evil dared not touch me because of my belief in "The Great Tao is unmatched throughout heaven and earth." (from Hong Yin) In a word, those who truly follow the guidance of Master are the most indestructible beings in the whole universe.
Since the sending forth of righteous thoughts, I have often felt fatigued and sleepy. The mentality of "fear" also grew. I even felt that the police were standing outside of my door. Sometimes, I even lost my temper without reason. I had to eliminate these things continuously with righteous thoughts, so as to continue with truth-clarifying activities. There were even times when I had to stop to read several of Master's articles before I could continue. None of my efforts were like smooth sailing, but they were all successful. However, I never seriously thought about the reasons for this success, until I began actually writing about it, and it became very clear. In his recent articles, Master points out repeatedly that Fa-rectification disciples have already passed the stage of individual cultivation. He also clearly identifies interference of the evil in Fa-rectification. Fatigue, fear, and hot temper--aren't all these interfering with Fa-rectification? They make us look unrighteous and unconcerned. And they make us unable to tell the truth with resolute, pure righteous thoughts. We must deny them with our determination. The evil never misses any opportunity to interfere with our righteous thoughts. We thus will eliminate these things whenever and however we encounter them.
At present, the world's people all come from different celestial bodies. Whenever we use righteous thoughts to tell the truth to different people, we make contact with those different celestial bodies, and the evil and old forces hidden there will come out to cause interference. In our constant drive to tell the truth, those beings from different celestial bodies will be saved. At the same time, the energy potency of Dafa disciples is also breaking through layers upon layers of the universe. Only Dafa disciples can have such an opportunity and mighty virtue.
Not long ago, the evil made another wave of fabrications against Dafa. When I read the fabrications in the newspaper, I immediately sent forth righteous thoughts to eliminate the evil behind the scenes. In the meantime, I reflected on our inadequacies. I suddenly realized that it was our selfishness and impurity that gave the evil an excuse to slander Dafa. We are beings established for Dafa; all the meaning of our existence in the human world is to perfectly harmonize Dafa and to carve out the future for history. Yet, when we work for Dafa, how much selfishness is still at play, and how many of us are still attached to individual consummation. Take myself as an example. I have always taken to heart that I did not have the opportunity to go to Tiananmen and call on the world's people to wake up, and thought that I would not achieve Consummation without doing so. But all this is still in the framework of the old notion of personal cultivation -- how far away it is from Fa-rectification cultivation!
Thinking along these lines, it suddenly dawned on me that as long as we let go of our attachments to ourselves and to selfishness, we will do well in and accomplish all that we should do. Inspired by righteous thoughts and guided by Dafa principles, am I not standing in Tiananmen Square every day and using my life to call on the world's people to wake up? Upon having this thought, all those hindrances in my mind were gone and all of a sudden, my righteous thoughts were boundless. Wherever they reached, the evil was pulverized without any trace left.
Teacher said at the Washington DC International Conference, "Every Dafa disciple who's been able to keep up with Dafa's progress has done what he should do." I believe I will go to Tiananmen without any hesitation on the day when I feel this is what I should do out of my responsibility to all sentient beings and the Fa.
I had a dream a few days ago. In it, I saw myself crawling in a barrel big enough to only hold a person of my size. The top was sealed. I thus turned around and kicked off one side of the barrel. Out of the barrel, I saw the boundless heaven and earth. Indeed, aren't we wrapped up in layers upon layers of human mentalities shaped by the human world and the old universe? Throughout history, the evil and old forces have concocted many evil notions and placed them in our minds. These notions would make us believe that clarifying the truth is engaging in politics, that we should endure in cultivation, that clarifying the truth is violating the law, that clarifying the truth is harming social stability, that exposing the evil is making the country lose face, that Dafa is anti-science, that others cannot understand us, that it is reasonable for the police to catch us, that the dictatorship and propaganda machinery is most powerful, that using supernormal abilities is not cultivation, that distributing materials is underhanded, that we are still suffering from our karma, etc. All of this is false. These notions have confined us inside the barrel and are not allowing us to see the sky, to see the power of benevolence, and to see the grandness of the Fa. The vicious old forces keep reinforcing these notions, using them to shake our righteous beliefs, and to impose physical agonies on us.
Indeed, for our Dafa practitioners, these human notions that do not belong to us are restraining our majestic power as gods, and the old forces are exploiting these notions to make us forget our grand nobleness. This is why they dare to interfere with us and test us, although they are not at all worthy of doing so. Accepting their test is a disgrace to Dafa and is disrespectful to Master. We, as magnificent Fa-rectification disciples, are beings established in Fa-rectification, and are the most righteous, the most glorified, and the most powerful in the universe. It is they, the old beings, that have deviated from the Fa, and the deceived sentient beings, that need to be rectified and tested. Denying the arrangements by the old forces is extending mercy to them so that they won't commit crimes against Dafa again. In the name of my life, I will admonish those old forces with all seriousness that, "if you continue with your reckless behavior and insist on "testing" Dafa and Dafa disciples, you are doomed to face complete destruction of both body and soul." The Fa-rectification disciples, however, will erect at this great historic moment a monument for sentient beings of the cosmos in the future.
My routine work schedule is hectic and I have to work late into the night for Dafa. This, however, does not prevent me from doing well and even better in my ordinary work (for instance, the projects that I lead are urgent and have tight deadlines, but I can finish them on time. My boss calls them miracles). In addition, I get along well with my colleagues, and my relationship with my wife and our family life are admired by others. The business of my wife's company is also prosperous. In Fa-rectification, I am secure, healthy, serene and peaceful. All this is the mighty power of Dafa manifested in me. Through me, Dafa has revealed its greatness, dignity and majesty to the sentient beings in this most vicious place. I am well aware every day that these blessings are meant to provide models for the future. I am no longer an individual entity; instead, I am a trailblazer for the future. My righteous path is to be left for the future to follow; thus I am also determining the beings in the future. I am a being established for Fa-rectification. I am a guardian of justice in the universe. The only significance of my existence on the earth, every second and minute of it, is to assist Teacher in his journey in this world.
I will safeguard and continue to receive all these blessings bestowed only upon Dafa disciples, because these blessings, which are a manifestation of Dafa's mighty virtues in the human world, also serve as a model for the future. The image of Jesus Christ being crucified will never occur. I will leave goodness to the future. I am magnificent, solemnly dignified, wise, all-powerful, and my righteous thoughts are boundless. I possess all that is good in the universe. This is because all that I have is created by Dafa. My name is Fa-rectification disciple. I will be admired by sentient beings, and my birth will take place during Fa-rectification.
Tears steamed down my cheeks when I read Master's lecture in Washington DC. Our compassionate and venerable Master, you have exhausted all methods to awaken us. Dafa disciples, how can we let Master wait any longer? I will use my life to call on those disciples who have not been diligent: Please step forward! This very moment in history is so solemn and magnificent. Every Fa-rectification disciple has an irreplaceable role to play--every one of us is able to hold up the sky with one arm. I will use my life to call to those diligent disciples: please use your righteous thoughts to rectify my inadequacies, help me to be more diligent, and help me to save more sentient beings.
When I was about to write down all these experiences, the evil forces made all kinds of trouble to disrupt my thinking. When I finally finished doing it, my mind was so peaceful. Dafa is so magnificently beautiful, and within Fa-rectification a being will live forever.