"In All Circumstances, Trust Teacher and Trust Dafa"

April 29, 2001

[Minghui Net] I was illegally sent to a labor camp last September because of distributing literature that clarified the truth of Dafa. Shi Bai (pseudo name), a practitioner from our practice site, was arrested together with me. At that time, the materials that clarified the truth were everywhere in our area, which effectively exposed and suffocated the vicious force. The police asked me where the materials came from. I said kindly, "I distributed them. I did so not for myself, but for other people. I cannot tell you where they came from." I was thus illegally interrogated in the police station that night. During the following 24 hours, my hands were cuffed behind my back. They were cuffed so tightly that the handcuffs dug into the muscles in my wrists. They then hung me up by the handcuffs. I was also beaten brutally. After trying every means, they still did not get anything they wanted and had to give up. Thus, I took all the responsibility and protected other practitioners.

I was then illegally kept in a detention center. During the following 42 days, they still did not get anything from me. Without any lawful procedures, I was then sentenced to a labor camp for two and a half years. Although Shi Bai told the police that the materials were from me, as I told her to say, she was still sentenced to a labor camp for one and a half years. We were kept in the same labor camp.

In the labor camp, all kinds of coercive means were used in the attempt to convert us.

On March 22, 2001, the labor camp guards came into the cells fiercely with electrical batons in their hands. They ordered all the practitioners to stand in two rows, straighten their legs, lower their heads, and hold their heads with their hands. A piece of paper slandering our Teacher and Dafa (Great Law and Principles) was placed in front of each practitioner. They tried to force us to defame our Teacher and Dafa. We were forced to stay in that position, and would be beaten if our legs were not straight or if our hands fell off our heads. Most practitioners stood this way from 9:00 p.m. until 6:00 a.m. the next day, but none of us signed that piece of paper. When I look back at that experience now, I regret that we did not eliminate the vicious force with our righteous minds, because our compliance led to further persecution. As our Teacher pointed out in "Dafa Disciples' Righteous Thoughts are Powerful," "As a Dafa disciple, why fear the evil ones when enduring persecution? The crux of the matter is that you have attachments. If not, do not endure passively, and face the evil people with righteous thoughts at all times. No matter what the situation, do not cooperate with the evil's demands, orders, or what it instigates. If everyone does this the environment won't be this way." If, at that time, all of the practitioners could have suffocated the vicious force with their righteous minds, it would have been a different situation.

On the morning of March 23, 2001, a guard said that anyone who did not sign the paper would be punished by standing in this position for one week. We were thus forced to continue standing straight with hands holding our heads. Many practitioners had severe discomfort, including vomiting and dizziness. A small pile of hair fell off in front of everyone. All the practitioners felt they had reached the limit of their endurance. By noon, news came that two practitioners on the fifth floor could no longer stand it and had jumped out of the building. To cover the fact that they had tortured people to death, the labor camp fabricated a story that the practitioners committed suicide by jumping out of the building to attain consummation. In his book Zhuan Falun, our Teacher clearly indicates that practitioners are forbidden to kill lives, and it is a sin to commit suicide. We are very fortunate to practice the universal law, led by our Teacher. The human body is very precious, as through it we can cultivate and help our teacher in this world. What we are cultivating is selflessness, which includes risking our own lives for the sake of others. However, when Dafa is being persecuted and we need to validate Dafa, we would never choose to give up our lives by ourselves. During a phone call in front of the police, I said to my family, "They are trying to force me to convert. If something occurs to me, I twill be because of the persecution, since I will never commit suicide."

Because of her attachments, Shi Bai could not endure the torture any longer, and she strayed from Dafa by signing the paper that slandered Dafa and our teacher. In the afternoon of March 23, 2001, a "Converting Group" came to the labor camp. They claimed to be practitioners and tried to make excuses for their straying from Dafa. By spreading wrong ideas, they aimed at the attachments that practitioners had, and induced them to give up practicing and to damage Dafa. Among those ideas, Shi Bai found the excuses that could protect her attachments. Thus, she totally changed and became one of them.

Shi Bai wanted to shake my righteous faith with her wrong ideas. Wherever I went, she would follow.

I was then led to a room on the third floor, where I was surrounded by several members of the "Converting Group." Shi Bai was sitting by my side to help them. They talked from 6: 00 a.m. to 11:00 p.m. on that day and from 6:00 a.m. to 6:00 p.m. on the next day. I was forced to listen to their talking until I had severe discomforts, such as vomiting etc. I ignored their wrong ideas. If they talked about Dafa principles, I would point out their attachments with my righteous mind. Finally, they saw that their wrong understandings could not convince me, but only exposed their own weak points. They then took off their masks of kindness and became furious. One of them waved one of her hands and said, "If this was a sword, I would kill you now!" Now, their true nature was exposed.

I reasoned and debated with the vicious people face to face, applying my righteous understanding of Dafa principles to shatter their attachments. Each of them was being shaken to different degrees. In the end, they could not transform me and their own group became weakened. I knew that if one could put down all attachments, she/he would not be afraid of the vicious people's deviant explanations of Dafa. They cannot mislead practitioners unless they cannot give up their attachments. The vile persons were very scared by my firm belief in Dafa and my steady calm attitude. They criticized Shi Bai, scolding her for having brought a determined practitioner like me to the 3^rd floor, which caused many transformed people to doubt their own evil explanations.

In order to hide the attachments that they cannot put down, these former fellow practitioners willingly accepted the evil explanations, were self-deceived, and began damaging Dafa. Seeing them moving further and further towards their own self-destruction, I felt very painful in my heart because they have lost their cultivation opportunity. But I didn't hate them. The pain became so intense that I cried for them for a long time from my heart. As I was crying, I felt more and more heart broken and almost passed out. My crying startled the prison police. I told them that I did not want to stay on the 3^rd floor and wanted to return to the 5^th floor. All the firm Dafa practitioners were locked on the 5^th floor. They were forced to make campstools every day and were strictly controlled. I would rather be locked up with them. The "education center" did not allow me to return to the 5^th floor, for they were afraid that the secrets of the 3^rd floor's evil transformation procedures would be exposed. However, they were not willing to keep me on the 3^rd floor either. The evil forces feared that those already transformed people would realize their own attachments during their conversations with me, and that their deceptions would lose their ability to mislead people. As a result, I was still locked with Shi Bai in the same cell on the 3^rd floor.

Because of extreme sadness, I did not want to eat and started running a fever. My whole body was twitching. A guard found a thermometer and tested my body temperature. It was 39 C. They sent me to a hospital. I told them that I would be all right if I could have some sleep and asked them to send me back. I had some sleep and my body temperature reduced to 38.4 C when I woke up. Although I still had a fever, I stopped twitching. The guard asked me what I did to break the fever, and I replied that I had some sleep. She admirably said, "If everyone was like you, what would we need a hospital for?" Since they did not allow me to go up to the 5^th floor, I began a hunger strike to protest. Actually, I did not feel hungry at all.

When Shi Bai knew that I wanted to go to the 5^th floor, she asked me if I could stay on the 3^rd floor. If I went up to the 5^th floor, she would have to follow me up there. She was not willing to go there since the 5^th floor was controlled more strictly than the 3^rd floor. I told the team head that I only wanted to go to the 5^th floor by myself and asked her whether it was possible for Shi Bai not to follow me there. The team head said that Shi Bai could not be separated from me since her task was to "help" me to "transform." I decided to stay on the 3^rd floor and did not ask to go to the 5^th floor any more. I told Shi Bai from my heart: "My fellow practitioner, who knows what kind of predestined relationship we have that we practiced Dafa together in this life. In the beginning days of our cultivation, we practiced at the same practice site in the morning and evening. We were arrested when we were distributing Dafa materials together. I took all the responsibility because I was afraid that you could not bear them. For you, I can now give up the request to stay with the firm Dafa practitioners and stay here." I did everything I could for her. I started to drink water and stopped my hunger strike. I raised one request to the guard: If I was not willing to listen to the evil explanations any more, I should be allowed to go to the hallway or stay in the guard's office for a while. They found that I had stopped the hunger strike so they agreed to my request. However, I was still very weak and began passing blood in my stool due to the lack of rest and the hunger strike. I was allowed to rest in an empty room. Shi Bai opened the door and came in. She told me some of her evil understandings; I utilized my righteous understanding of Dafa to break her attachments, not giving her any foothold. Suddenly, she stood up and slapped my forehead 4-5 times. She slapped me so hard that my forehead turned red. I told her: "I will not allow this kind of thing to happen any more. I don't want to live with you in the same room any longer. Your actions have shocked me too much. Why have you done this?" Shi Bai regretted it right away. She said: "It was the "helping and educating group" that told me to do this. They said that the foreheads of those who were controlled by demons were red. I saw your forehead was a little red just now, so I tried to help you by knocking out the demon." I told her, "Look at yourself. Are you acting like a practitioner? You talk nonsense. You believe whatever they tell you. Teacher has told us to practice with a clear mind. You don't know what you are doing." I was very disappointed for her though she said that she would not do this again. I told the guard, "I don't want to live with Shi Bai in the same room any longer." Then I had a talk with a kind-hearted guard, who was relatively better among the prison police and never beat or scolded any Dafa disciples. She told me, "What you have done is right, but you must face everything." Perhaps Teacher was using her mouth to give me a hint. I immediately understood. Why did I always want to stay with the firm practitioners? A Dafa disciple should shine with pure righteous light wherever she/he goes. Therefore, I decided to face the evil and suffocate the evil rather than avoid the evil. When I made up my mind, the guards forced me to have a medical examination in a hospital and planned to arrange for me to have medical treatment outside by paying the bail. They told me to tell the truth to the doctor. I said that I couldn't lie. The evil force fears our determination the most. They could not be at ease no matter where they put me. They were afraid that my righteous understanding of Dafa would shatter the attachments of those who have turned to the opposite side and would reveal the truth. In the hospital, when a doctor asked me how I felt, I said that I felt nothing wrong. The doctor said my disease was severe and might be dangerous if I did not get treatment immediately. Thus, the "education center" arranged for me to have outside medical treatment while on bail that same day, and sent me out of the labor camp without any hesitation.

Once, I found Teacher in my dream and called to him. Teacher asked me what I needed and I said that I wanted to go with him. Teacher told me with a serious expression: "In all circumstances, trust Teacher and trust Dafa." Then I woke up with a start. After that, whenever I experienced a tribulation or faced a test, Teacher's words came to my mind. I realized, doesn't trusting Teacher and Dafa in all circumstances amount to following Teacher home?